Posts by Esmeralda001

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Update 8: "fix your attitude, young lady"

by Esmeralda001 in

my study conductor lectured me about my attitude this morning!!!!

apparently some sister complained to her that my attitude was irritating.

the sister in question is just bothered by the fact that i ignore her along with her four daughters.

Esmeralda001

It is my study conductor who said this to me, not an elder.

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Update 8: "fix your attitude, young lady"

by Esmeralda001 in

my study conductor lectured me about my attitude this morning!!!!

apparently some sister complained to her that my attitude was irritating.

the sister in question is just bothered by the fact that i ignore her along with her four daughters.

As you may guess, my study conductor refused to reveal the name of the complainer. I told her it is best if SHE (we both know who she is anyway) come see me direclty to address the issue, otherwise there will be no change in my attitude whatsoever. To wich she replied:"you might have valide reasons to behave that way, but as real christians we must put our difference aside and swallow our pride to maintain the congregation peace. (She pointed out some verses in the bible). You might not realize but you are not just hurting sister x. Your attitude may be stumbling others members". I ended up the debate by saying That being distante is the only way I can preserve my inner peace (and that of the congregation by extension). Since i'm not disrespecting anyone, i'll continue to do so. It is really common for the members of our congregation to ignore each other. that's nothing new under the sun. Nobody will stumble.

you know what we say about hispanic and black women: they are very assertive (I may be out of line. Don't quote me on this one :-p ). Guess what? I'm a combinaison of both. In my culture, we don't believe in passive agressivity. Ever since I've been affiliated with the JW's i've learnt to be less confrontational wich I think is a good thing. I deal with people that I want to deal with, and ignore the ones whom I can't learn anything from.

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Update 8: "fix your attitude, young lady"

by Esmeralda001 in

my study conductor lectured me about my attitude this morning!!!!

apparently some sister complained to her that my attitude was irritating.

the sister in question is just bothered by the fact that i ignore her along with her four daughters.

Esmeralda001

i'm not shunning the sisters as an act of revange or out of spite. I behave that way mainly because I seek peace. I'm sick and tired of overanalyzing the sisters ugly ways. It affects my happyness. I don't carry any hate in my heart, and I believe in forgiveness. If they change their attitude (which I doubt they will), i'll change mine. Until then, These people are dead to me. No more drama.

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Update 8: "fix your attitude, young lady"

by Esmeralda001 in

my study conductor lectured me about my attitude this morning!!!!

apparently some sister complained to her that my attitude was irritating.

the sister in question is just bothered by the fact that i ignore her along with her four daughters.

Esmeralda001

Hi,

My study conductor lectured me about my attitude this morning!!!! Apparently some sister complained to her that my attitude was irritating. The sister in question is just bothered by the fact that I ignore her along with her four daughters. It is true that I've been shunning a entire group of women the last couple of weeks. What I have to say in my defence is that Ignoring certain members of my congregation has proved to be an effective way to keep chaos and negativity out of my life. I put my brain on "filter mode" twice a week when I attend the meetings: I will greet everybody except for the sisters who have been acting funny with me since my coming back to the org. Quite frankly it feels good to not have to worry about the troublemakers. My focus is on the well-meaning hearts and the "lowly" ones. It's funny,though,how the same people who have been shunning me for months are the ones who take offence at my attitude. Am I not doing them a favour by not acknowledging their existence? They are the ones who taught me by their arrogance that being socially selective is the way to go. My behaviour provides me with confidence and peace. For that reason, i'll continue to ignore the ones who try to make my life miserable.

Fin de l'histoire :-)

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New Years Resolutions

by cognac in

jw
friends

mine are:.

1. move.

2. lose a little weight .

Esmeralda001

1.gain a few pounds

2. Avoid negativity

3. Read the bible on a daily basis

4. Get my first car.

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"High" education

by Esmeralda001 in

did any of you guys disregard the wt recommendations and pursue a career.

if you answer "yes": was your journey easy?

are you happy with the end result?

Esmeralda001

Let's go my dear! @yogopants

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Rivalry among the sisters

by Esmeralda001 in

when i was first introduced to the "truth", i was so distracted by the love and affection that the members were showing me that i was ready to convert into the religion without thinking twice.

i was conviced that jws were god's people (i still think some of them are).

i made it my goal to get baptized as i wanted to be part of the "only" religion that produce such good people.

Esmeralda001

@GrreatTeacher, good point!

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Rivalry among the sisters

by Esmeralda001 in

when i was first introduced to the "truth", i was so distracted by the love and affection that the members were showing me that i was ready to convert into the religion without thinking twice.

i was conviced that jws were god's people (i still think some of them are).

i made it my goal to get baptized as i wanted to be part of the "only" religion that produce such good people.

Esmeralda001

I'm a full time student who works 25-35hrs/week as a lab technician at my school, so I guess you could say that I'm working full time somewhat. What's so bad about this? Why do the brothers and sisters have a problem with this? Are they going to pay my bills? I don't think so.

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Rivalry among the sisters

by Esmeralda001 in

when i was first introduced to the "truth", i was so distracted by the love and affection that the members were showing me that i was ready to convert into the religion without thinking twice.

i was conviced that jws were god's people (i still think some of them are).

i made it my goal to get baptized as i wanted to be part of the "only" religion that produce such good people.

Esmeralda001

@longhairgal.

I understand what you are saying. Don't think that I don't realize how much harm i'm doing to myself by sticking around. I'm trying to rationalize my fascination. I've been affiliated with the JWs for two years. This might not look like much to you, but it was enough time for me to fall in love with the JWs philosophy . As miserable as I feel, a part of me just refuses to let go. Telling an indoctrinated person to leave a cult is like telling an broken woman to end an abusive relationship. It seems simple and logical. But logic and rationality are the two things that i'm lacking at this point of my life. I don't need to examine the situation any longer. It appears very clear to me: I was looking for God in the wrong place. I will move on! gradually... For now i'm grieving the loss. I'm in a phase of disillusion. I don't feel the energy to attend the meetings anymore. The pain is so great that all I want to do is to copulate. So now not only do I have to accept the truth as it is, I have to fight my sinful tendencies (thank God I don't have a lover, because that would be the cherry on top.) I doubt i'm in an healthy state of mind at this moment. I don't want to deal with this situation. For this reason i'll keep postponing it. When i'm ready, i'll call my study conductor to end my bible study. Satan is misleading human kind. I can't wait for the day where everything will fall into place. Until then, let's pray for the best while expecting the worst.

Happy new year y'all . Best wishes! xox

Gros bisou!

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Rivalry among the sisters

by Esmeralda001 in

when i was first introduced to the "truth", i was so distracted by the love and affection that the members were showing me that i was ready to convert into the religion without thinking twice.

i was conviced that jws were god's people (i still think some of them are).

i made it my goal to get baptized as i wanted to be part of the "only" religion that produce such good people.

Esmeralda001

Thank you everyone for sharing your thoughts !

@katewild, is it ok for you if I ask you a few questions concerning your career? I don't want you to feel unconfortable.

@whom ever said that JWs women don't have much going on in their lives: I think it's quite the contrary. They are busy people with busy schedules. Why would a special pioneer wast her precious time gossiping instead of taking care of "spiritual" matters?

@Diogenesister

I do agree with you. The sisters dress up as though they were going to attend a fashion show (which In my opinion is a good thing). It is more noticeable during the special week or during the annual convention. On normal days, most of them dress plainly except for the elderettes and her four daughters. They always look nice and glamorous. You can tell that they put a lot if work in their makeup and nail polish. one day I came to the meeting with a little bit of make up (nothing too dramatic, just mascara and blush) and my hair down (I usually pin my hair for a more professional look). They seemed bothered.

sometimes I wish my friend was still in. I would have someone to talk to before and after the meetings. It doesn't bother me not to fit in any cliques as I'm a looner by nature. I can cope with solitude. What bothers me, though, is that the bratz who actively try to exclude me might think that their sneaky ways make me miserable. This could be the case if my life revolved around the organization... My friend switched congregation for this very issue. I went to the Spanish congregation several times to visite her, I never saw her. The last time I saw her was a year ago. She confessed to me that she was dating a "wordly" men. I hope she didn't get disfellowshipped for that. I hope she is enjoying life!