I remember one of my first posts on here called "Feeling sad after learning the truth about the truth".
I was miserable as JW. I was raised in it, my entire family were JWs, parents, grandparents, uncles, aunts, nieces, nephews, cousins... everyone. Yet i was very much alone. I had no friends because i just wast into this "fake joy" they're all doing. I was the only one that openly acknowledge that the door to door ministry is a drudge, a bore, a waste of time. No one seemed to be on my level even when i was a 100% devoted believer.
I will always want the truth. No matter how painful, how hard or how sad. And i think it's important to always test to see if what you have is actually true. If more evidence and facts come to light investigate them. Dont ignore them.