Sorry Eden. Get your focus on the future and leave the past behind. When a woman says "No", I've learned to say "next"!
I'm divorced now for about two months after 27.5 years of marriage.
I was able to get my immediate family out of JW dreamland and I thought we were safe, then things started to change.
I've talked to men who have been through the same thing and they tell me that the women will usually make an effort to restore the relationship 4-5 years later. I don't want her back.
If I had know how this would end, I would have pursued a divorce 15 years ago. I was not happy in a sexless marriage.
Peace