I guess also, does anyone have any advice for building my relationship with my father who is an unbaptized publisher and is 'currently praying to Jehovah' and I am sure talking with the witnesses as to whether or not he is going to kick me out?
Alostpuppydog
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How to accept and move on from JW's?
by Alostpuppydog injust like the title says, how does ones self start the transition out of the jw's belief system, since i will never be allowed to go to a kingdom hall and believe a lot of what they teach.. i guess more importantly how have you guys here moved on that have had some exposure to the jw's?.
any advice is more than welcomed and i thank those that have thus far replied to me!!
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How to accept and move on from JW's?
by Alostpuppydog injust like the title says, how does ones self start the transition out of the jw's belief system, since i will never be allowed to go to a kingdom hall and believe a lot of what they teach.. i guess more importantly how have you guys here moved on that have had some exposure to the jw's?.
any advice is more than welcomed and i thank those that have thus far replied to me!!
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Just like the title says, how does ones self start the transition out of the JW's belief system, since I will never be allowed to go to a Kingdom Hall and believe a lot of what they teach.
I guess more importantly how have you guys here moved on that have had some exposure to the JW's?
Any advice is more than welcomed and I thank those that have thus far replied to me!!!
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Is this a sign then, should I lol?
by Alostpuppydog inso the elder (who was my teacher) has informed the rest of the congregation and has now revolked my enterance into their or any hall.
and so now they are looking into getting a restraining order and have called new york and that's what they have decided to do.
just because i was made to feel so depressed and hated that i was thinking of suicide.
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I don't have access to a gun btw now. And no I am not going to or intended to actually, just out for the severity of how I was feeling I felt I had to say something for help. But yea I will never go to another Kingdom Hall as long as I live because they have only increased my problems to the point I feel like I can't live. And who would want that? This just goes to show me once and for all I am better off without them worshipping Yahweh by myself without a religion and seeking professional help. Sad to say it but I think I have to for my sanity. And I am calm, I am at work...
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Is this a sign then, should I lol?
by Alostpuppydog inso the elder (who was my teacher) has informed the rest of the congregation and has now revolked my enterance into their or any hall.
and so now they are looking into getting a restraining order and have called new york and that's what they have decided to do.
just because i was made to feel so depressed and hated that i was thinking of suicide.
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Also, I haven't said anything like this to any of the Witnesses or even tried to talk to any of them since I just went to the hospital to get evaluated and they set me up with a therapist and a support group and again, not having anything to do with the JW's, I am already feeling Farr better
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Is this a sign then, should I lol?
by Alostpuppydog inso the elder (who was my teacher) has informed the rest of the congregation and has now revolked my enterance into their or any hall.
and so now they are looking into getting a restraining order and have called new york and that's what they have decided to do.
just because i was made to feel so depressed and hated that i was thinking of suicide.
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Alostpuppydog
I didn't make any threats against them or in a Kingdom Hall. All I said to my Dad who isn't even a JW that they are making me feel suicidal to the point that I feel like shooting them because they are making me feel soooo upset or I just leave and never go back. And I have been hospitalized before but I am feeling fine now already knowing that the burden of their people won't be coming to me any time soon. And as for informing me, they have sent me no texts or anything, other than having had told my Dad that's what NEW YORK HQ told them to do to me.
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Is this a sign then, should I lol?
by Alostpuppydog inso the elder (who was my teacher) has informed the rest of the congregation and has now revolked my enterance into their or any hall.
and so now they are looking into getting a restraining order and have called new york and that's what they have decided to do.
just because i was made to feel so depressed and hated that i was thinking of suicide.
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Alostpuppydog
Well I am not feeling suicidal now knowing that I am not going to be going to the hall, clearly lol. But I was just saying that was how they were making me feel because they want you to isolate away from anyone but them, and they don't even have the time nor does it seem the want to help people like me. So I been thinking it would be better if I just moved on because while I don't have a problem with most of their beliefs, I do with their people. And they want to say it's Satan that makes me feel suicidal when I study with them, but then they just have you isolate yourself and become more depressed.
i have already met with a therapist and am going to a support group tomorrow, of which they are so against, I wonder why, and will not even be thinking of them because I wasn't suicidal when I wasn't attending the hall.
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Is this a sign then, should I lol?
by Alostpuppydog inso the elder (who was my teacher) has informed the rest of the congregation and has now revolked my enterance into their or any hall.
and so now they are looking into getting a restraining order and have called new york and that's what they have decided to do.
just because i was made to feel so depressed and hated that i was thinking of suicide.
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And my Dad says he can no longer be around me because I told him one of the witnesses fruits, seems to me at least, is hating outsiders. When even a different elder expressed last week when I was at his house with others that he likes it when people turn him down at the door, of course himself being a millionaire and not having to deal with normal things us poor people deal with. And so it looks like I will be facing homelessness by January because my Dad, who is not a witness, refuses to speak to me. And the witnesses want to put me in prison for terroristic threats because I told my Dad yesterday I feel like I have two options: Never going to another meeting again or shooting up the whole congregation because I was doing just fine before I began studying and now I am all depressed and left feeling suicidal whenever I have anything to do with the organization.
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Is this a sign then, should I lol?
by Alostpuppydog inso the elder (who was my teacher) has informed the rest of the congregation and has now revolked my enterance into their or any hall.
and so now they are looking into getting a restraining order and have called new york and that's what they have decided to do.
just because i was made to feel so depressed and hated that i was thinking of suicide.
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Alostpuppydog
So the elder (who was my teacher) has informed the rest of the congregation and has now revolked my Enterance into their or any Hall. And so now they are looking into getting a restraining order and have called New York and that's what they have decided to do. Just because I was made to feel so depressed and hated that I was thinking of suicide. And I guess they took it as me making a threat against them? So anyone got any advice on this? By the way I thank you for this communities' advice on the last thing I posted. So now this is my third post!
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I want to be a JW but they seem to hate me? Help!
by Alostpuppydog injust going to give a little background about myself and then bring anyone who is reading this up to speed with where i am today:.
growing up in a family that was not aware of jehovah's witnesses at all, as none of my family members have had a run-in with them other than my parents, my entire life has been a mess ever since we met them.
the witnesses first came to my door when i was 12 and my dad started bringing me to meetings and we even lived with a witness family for a month when we were both homeless due to my parent's divorce.
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Well thank you guys very much so far as for your guys' responses. I am wondering if you are right and I should remove myself like I have in the past. I mean, it seems being a young person that is not even in a closely connected family and is living with the issues I deal with May pose too much of a threat to them. But I do agree with most of their biblical beliefs, however yea, being accepted into any congregation thus far has just not happened regardless of the time frame and regardless of how much it seems I have reached out. Now I have work today so I won't be home doing nothing today. But I still wonder why if I have begged 'Jehovah' countless times to help me and I have been acting in accordance with my prayers, why things only get drastically worse. I might just return to praying to Yahweh and I already am going to meet with a group of people dealing with similar issues of my own tomorrow. I think someone from my congregation is reading what I have posted on here lol...Just saying.
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I want to be a JW but they seem to hate me? Help!
by Alostpuppydog injust going to give a little background about myself and then bring anyone who is reading this up to speed with where i am today:.
growing up in a family that was not aware of jehovah's witnesses at all, as none of my family members have had a run-in with them other than my parents, my entire life has been a mess ever since we met them.
the witnesses first came to my door when i was 12 and my dad started bringing me to meetings and we even lived with a witness family for a month when we were both homeless due to my parent's divorce.
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Just going to give a little background about myself and then bring anyone who is reading this up to speed with where I am today:
Growing up in a family that was not aware of Jehovah's Witnesses at all, as none of my family members have had a run-in with them other than my parents, my entire life has been a mess ever since we met them. The Witnesses first came to my door when I was 12 and my Dad started bringing me to meetings and we even lived with a witness family for a month when we were both homeless due to my parent's divorce. We dabbled in and out of the truth because we moved more than 10 times in the next 6 years, so it made it very hard to become very acquainted with any congregation for more than a few months. Then, when I was 18 I ended up being homeless myself while going regularly to the original congregation I attended back when I was 12 and the same family took me in for half a year so that I could at least graduate high school. Soon after I graduated high school I found that their children who were all in their 30s and 40s were pressuring them to get rid of me and a lot of rumors were spreading in the congregation about me because I was reserved and still had no friends in the congregation. So, I dabbled in and out of different congregations for many years after leaving because of myself becoming so upset with everything and now I am back to living with my Dad. As of today, however, I just missed my first meeting since attending regularly for a month and a half and missed my study with an elder(who is my teacher and clearly seems to be too busy to deal with me, even though he was persistent with taking me as his study) because of having a mental breakdown.
So, now that we are up to speed I would like to address the following and am hoping that the community on this website could be somewhat helpful, since this is my first post on here:
Basically, I deal with severe depression, anxiety, OCD, and being bipolar, and I have kept it well hidden in my full-time job and even in the congregation itself, but it has now become WELL aware with the elder (who is my teacher) to the point he had me go admit myself to the hospital for a mental evaluation. And yes I had thoughts of suicide, but I have been for almost 10 years now. But, It has been getting really bad, like I mean to the point of having my hand on the trigger, since I have been studying with the witnesses, and have been reading my bible daily, and have cleansed myself of things deemed as sins in the bible. However, I have not made any friends and sit by myself now, despite having hung out with a few witnesses and a witness family, though never have I even spent any additional time with my teacher other than having lunch with him and 2 others after a weekend meeting. Now don't get me wrong, but I really love the people, the beliefs, just everything, and I have never been a fan of the worldly things that dominate the majority of people anyways, such as swearing, sex before marriage, getting tattoos, etc. But I mean what do I do? Nobody sent me a text since missing my first meeting, including my teacher, and I have now returned to doing some of the sinful things I used to do so that I am at least not being suicidal. Anybody have any suggestions, because I just feel so alone and really I worry if my Dad dies, not that anything is pointing to that, I will become homeless again because none of my blood family really cares about me, and I don't have any friends,and my job does not pay me well enough to be able to even live in a single bedroom apartment. And if I lose my Dad I know that I will end it, but again I need someone's advice if they think that there is even any hope for me in this life.
So again, if anyone has any helpful advice please inform me!
And yes I have now started seeing a therapist and I am going to have to switch medications because It is not helping me very much.