Dude exactly.
This is what I said to my father: If I have changed my life around to conform to the organization and its requirements, then why is it that I then become so depressed and even suicidal? Even when I beg Jehovah to protect me because I am working in harmony with my prayers. Not only that, but I have serious disagreements with the organization while studying, and aren't we supposed to make the truth our own and keep testing to see if we are in the truth?
His response: of course it makes perfect sense! Satan wants to mislead you away from the organization.
Me: 😑
We are in similar situations home slice and I don't know what it requires to put it through our parents' heads...