Posts by CovertsadJW

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I feel like I am going crazy at times ...

by CovertsadJW in

good evening , .

i feel like i am going crazy - it’s so hard not being able to talk to the ones i love about how i really feel - meaning the “ truth “ is a big lie and a big waste of time.

it’s so weird - i can’t talk to my wife , or kids about how i really feel and it’s causing me probalms that i recognize.

I feel like I am going crazy at times ...

by CovertsadJW in

good evening , .

i feel like i am going crazy - it’s so hard not being able to talk to the ones i love about how i really feel - meaning the “ truth “ is a big lie and a big waste of time.

it’s so weird - i can’t talk to my wife , or kids about how i really feel and it’s causing me probalms that i recognize.

I want to thank everyone for your thoughts. I am completely open for my wife to believe and choose what she believes and practices- I think this is true love and respect. Unfortunately that is not rescipricated in any fashion, people have read my other posts- she was raised by a perfectionist JW parent , seriously. Her tendency is to be very demeaning - I have set boundaries- but she does not respect me at all in word or action. She is unable to recognize me as a separate person with different beliefs- that is healthy. I guess in a nutshell I have recognized that I am - fading from an abusive cult - and in a emotionally and spiritually abusive relationship all at the same time. It’s sad and it’s allot to handle- The hard part is that this has been a very long time coming so it’s not new - probabaly 10 years or so- Her family is so judgmental of others and very tough spiritually so I cannot imagine that she would be accepted as a fader - so we are at an impasse. I just will say that spiritual abuse may be the worst non physical as it’s done under the giuse of Love -but it’s so far from love.

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I feel like I am going crazy at times ...

by CovertsadJW in

good evening , .

i feel like i am going crazy - it’s so hard not being able to talk to the ones i love about how i really feel - meaning the “ truth “ is a big lie and a big waste of time.

it’s so weird - i can’t talk to my wife , or kids about how i really feel and it’s causing me probalms that i recognize.

CovertsadJW

Good evening ,

I feel like I am going crazy - it’s so hard not being able to talk to the ones I love about how I really feel - meaning the “ truth “ is a big lie and a big waste of time. It’s so weird - I can’t talk to my wife , or kids about how I really feel and it’s causing me probalms that I recognize. I am holding back as I know if I come clean I will loose so many people , family , etc, But I can’t take it too much longer - it’s already dragged on way too long. Thanks for listening - this is my only outlet. If someone has had a similar path please give me your thoughts.

Thanks so much

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What is attractive?

by Freedom rocks in

has anyone found that since leaving the borg that their tastes have changed in what they find attractive in the opposite sex?

beards, long hair, tattoo's, etc).

i don't now if it's just my taste changing as i get older or if it's coz beards were frowned upon by the society that i find them attractive now and didn't when i was younger 😊.

CovertsadJW

I am now attracted to pillows of all shapes !

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Give Love to Receive Love ???

by IMHO in

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friends

please help me understand this.

over the years i have seen and have heard of many who have changed congregation due to the 'lack of love' shown in their own.

you then hear many condemning such ones as 'having a problem' and 'taking their problems with them'.

CovertsadJW

I cannot generalize , but I feel that many in the “ truth “‘are barely hanging on, don’t do it intentionally, and may I say do not understand your needs. I see many tired faces , and somedays I don’t even get a hello , but that’s because I’m fading - if someone sits down with me I am fairly decent company ...lol ..... most friends are superficial at best, gone in an instant - I have a few that are real

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Wives With Unbelieving Mates

by minimus in

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friends

i knew many witness wives with unbelieving mates who pretty much led a double life.

“my husband says i have to go the workplace christmas party.” or my mate tells me i have to make a thanksgiving dinnner.

or “ my mate insists i do things in the bedroom that i know the watchtower has talked against.

CovertsadJW

That sounds great

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Raising children - thoughts

by CovertsadJW in

just some thoughts for today - let me know what you think.

i grew up in the jw faith / cult - .

i can’t prove i am a better person because of it , but in some ways i can prove how it has damaged me.

CovertsadJW

Thanks everyone , I ask as I have 3 kids and they are of ages of understanding - I don’t want any part of the JW teachings as it makes me sick to my stomach - but my wife wants it 100%!- and she will not listen to the other side. I can’t change the past and I know that , and I understand that we all wish we could of changed part of our past. I wish my parents would of presented the “ truth “ to me as an option- like this is what we believe as your parents - but you will develop into your own person , so you can study and read both pros and cons and decide for yourself and we respect your decision. That would be my approach except the believe part. I know as a parent I will always love my kids no matter what path they choose- Hopefully a happy, educated , part of society, and one that does not put too much trust in “ Fairy Tales”

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Raising children - thoughts

by CovertsadJW in

just some thoughts for today - let me know what you think.

i grew up in the jw faith / cult - .

i can’t prove i am a better person because of it , but in some ways i can prove how it has damaged me.

CovertsadJW

Just some thoughts for today - let me know what you think.

I grew up in the JW faith / cult -

I can’t prove I am a better person because of it , but in some ways I can prove how it has damaged me. I grew up with at least 20+\- friends who had all kinds of parents. Some hard ass JW, some more liberal , and from my little world I can’t think of many positives of being a JW and it delays maturity, critical thinking skills, collaborative understanding, fosters a false belief system , and at some point all of that has to be dealt with. I don’t see a link with how “ busy “ kids were in the truth with their outcome long term , most are in a worse long term situation as decisions were delayed for a very long time. I know Inam rambling , but I asked my dad to identify the positive outcomes of all of the kids I grew up with in the truth and he could not name one . !

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The Constant Mindchatter After You Leave

by pale.emperor in

i've been out almost 2 years now and consider myself wide awake to watchtower propaganda and well on my way to recovery from the mental abuse we've all experienced.. one thing that just will not go is that i constantly think of jwism and watchtower and get myself all annoyed at their lies and blatant twisting of facts in their broadcasts and magazines.

it's so bad that it's the first thing i think of when i wake up, then i have these mental arguments in my head proving the jw teachings false and then getting annoyed because no jw will listen even if you tried to tell them.

i call this constant thinking and mental reasoning and mental arguing "mindchatter".

CovertsadJW

I’ve thought of the same things and have some of the same issues - what I may try and do is give myself a time limit everyday to address and mourn my loss and losses. We are all severely impacted by this cult so it will always be a part of who we are. Just as war , famine , rape physical abuse and emotional abuse , etc will always be a part of those who have experienced it firsthand. I have been mourning he loss of my “ faith “ and my family does not undersntad - my parents most likely think I’m “nuts” I can’t share how I feel with my JW wife - I literally feel like I’m going crazy at times. I don’t know allot but I feel like I know the following: I am a good person who has been abused by a cult. I no longer want to be a part of that cult. I want to also help others to avoid the JW cult like practices. It also drives me crazy that people “ don’t get it “ , but they never will unless the research and dig. .....

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How Many People Here Still Believe In “God”?

by minimus in

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friends

because of this site i realized that there were many people who were active jehovah’s witnesses really didn’t believe in god at all.

i’m curious how many people believe in god?

i’m not interested in debating why you shouldn’t have a belief in a god or should.

CovertsadJW

Nope