thank you punkofnice and kick50r. don´t worry, once bitten twice shy. no more religion, nutty or otherwise for me.
noralee
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Hello, this is my first post
by noralee inhello, this is my first post, i would like to introduce myself and say thank you to every one on this forum, you have been a lifeline to me these last few years.. i had been a jw for 30 years when i walked away a few years ago disgusted by the treatment victims of child abuse, domestic abuse and rape receive from the wtbts.. at first i thought it was a local problem, elders personal opinions, the way they handled the situations, imperfect men etc., until i checked out jehovahs witnesses and child abuse/domestic abuse online.
that's when i realized they had the same modus operandi worldwide.
that led me here, tbuo this forum, and then to crisis of conscience, jw facts, watchtower documents, jw survey, old watchtower literature and cd s, reading a couple of steve hassans books, and more recently exiting the jw cult.. the feelings of shock, betrayal, anger at the wtbts, angry with myself for being so gullible, depression, reflection, loneliness, have taken their toll.
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Hello, I'm new here too!
by redpilltwice inhi everybody, 1st post here.
20 years jw, elder for 6 years, regular pioneer for 3 years, have always been following the 2012 candace conti abuse case with much interest, especially since the case suddenly disappeared from www.watchtower.com's news section (thanks brother j. r. brown, office of public information, because it led me to "worldly" websites for more info), leading to more and more dissatisfaction , leading to jwfacts, jwsurvey, ad1914, wtdocuments etc., leading to my awakening about 4 months ago, now fading faster and faster to zero meetings and zero field service...and you know what?
it feels good!.
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noralee
hello redpilltwice, its great to hear you and your brave free thinking daughter are making a quick exit. you´ve done good
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Hello, this is my first post
by noralee inhello, this is my first post, i would like to introduce myself and say thank you to every one on this forum, you have been a lifeline to me these last few years.. i had been a jw for 30 years when i walked away a few years ago disgusted by the treatment victims of child abuse, domestic abuse and rape receive from the wtbts.. at first i thought it was a local problem, elders personal opinions, the way they handled the situations, imperfect men etc., until i checked out jehovahs witnesses and child abuse/domestic abuse online.
that's when i realized they had the same modus operandi worldwide.
that led me here, tbuo this forum, and then to crisis of conscience, jw facts, watchtower documents, jw survey, old watchtower literature and cd s, reading a couple of steve hassans books, and more recently exiting the jw cult.. the feelings of shock, betrayal, anger at the wtbts, angry with myself for being so gullible, depression, reflection, loneliness, have taken their toll.
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Thank you all so much for the lovely warm welcome, advice and understanding. I am so happy I finally plucked up the courage to post. Thank you for making me feel so welcome and at home, and I would say to anyone lurking to follow the advice of wasanelderonce," come in and see"
OTWO - yes that´s the book, it is a wonderful book, I´ve read other books about exiting cults, but for me this has been by far the best, I think the fact that the author is an exjw makes all the difference. I found the healing techniques really helpful, as well as a few of the books she recommends.
LisaRose - thank you for your loving, caring advice, I totally agree with all that you said, the feelings of unworthiness are one of the most toxic residues that cling to us after leaving the wbts, and probably the hardest to get out of our system. It didn't matter what we did, we were always reminded we were never good enough, and nothing without them. I´ve very recently started doing some mindful meditation (doctors advice), and í´m finding it really does help to see the negative, repeating patterns, and that its not a bad thing to love and accept ourselves as we are, and to take life one day at a time.
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Hello, this is my first post
by noralee inhello, this is my first post, i would like to introduce myself and say thank you to every one on this forum, you have been a lifeline to me these last few years.. i had been a jw for 30 years when i walked away a few years ago disgusted by the treatment victims of child abuse, domestic abuse and rape receive from the wtbts.. at first i thought it was a local problem, elders personal opinions, the way they handled the situations, imperfect men etc., until i checked out jehovahs witnesses and child abuse/domestic abuse online.
that's when i realized they had the same modus operandi worldwide.
that led me here, tbuo this forum, and then to crisis of conscience, jw facts, watchtower documents, jw survey, old watchtower literature and cd s, reading a couple of steve hassans books, and more recently exiting the jw cult.. the feelings of shock, betrayal, anger at the wtbts, angry with myself for being so gullible, depression, reflection, loneliness, have taken their toll.
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Hello, this is my first post, I would like to introduce myself and say thank you to every one on this forum, you have been a lifeline to me these last few years.
I had been a jw for 30 years when I walked away a few years ago disgusted by the treatment victims of child abuse, domestic abuse and rape receive from the wtbts.
At first I thought it was a local problem, elders personal opinions, the way they handled the situations, imperfect men etc., until I checked out jehovahs witnesses and child abuse/domestic abuse online. That's when I realized they had the same modus operandi worldwide. That led me here, tbuo this forum, and then to Crisis of Conscience, JW Facts, Watchtower Documents, JW Survey, old watchtower literature and cd¨s, reading a couple of Steve Hassans books, and more recently Exiting the JW Cult.
The feelings of shock, betrayal, anger at the wtbts, angry with myself for being so gullible, depression, reflection, loneliness, have taken their toll. The overwhelming feeling of guilt for introducing my family to the cult is probably the hardest part, they are all out now, but I can never give them back all those wasted years or take away all that they suffered. We are all moving on together, and making a new life, although I don't think I´ll ever really be able to forgive myself.
Once again, to each and every one of you beautiful, brave people, thank you.
noralee