Wow this is so hard for you BU2B.
I am so sick of the hold the JWs have over us even when we are through.
Even though faded I am going through shunning by my parents and siblings at the moment. I cant imagine how I would be if I didnt have my Husband and kids out with me.
Sending lots of hugs and positive energy your way.
Keep talking to us and dont give up.