Terry, I am so sorry about your wife. Many of us who spent our life under the illusion that we would never die if only we believed and stayed faithful to the "truth" lost our balance when we had to face the fact that
we had been duped. As you alluded to, the WtS teaching about the end coming in 1975 was accepted as an Absolute Belief by those of us fully blinded by the so called "truth." We have been left embittered by the
loss of our youth and the opportunites missed due to the organization's teachings. Your wife's loss of life and your loss of her, and children's loss of a mother is, of course, the ultimat loss. As stated eariler, no one
who has not experienced this "crisis of faith" can fully understand what happens when you are forced to "grapple with the dawning realization that the Watchtower religion was [is] FALSE." It is devastating
to realize your whole life has been based on a LIE! And NOW! to learn that the Organization denies what they themselves preached to us continually and put the blame on US for misunderstanding
is so disgusting and unbelievable. Too bad for them that there is not only written proof of what they said but those of us who remember (How could we forget!) and lived through their debacle who can testify to the
lies they have told.