Leaving reminds me of a scene in the movie "constantine" where Keanu Reeves uses all his energy to escape the demons that are trying to pull him back to hell.
Coming to the realization you have to go back to square one and rewire your brain is the most annoying, leaving is liberating, but dealing with the fact that the fantasy comfort zone is gone can be hard for the unmotivated... DEPRESSION WILL HIT YOU HARD!
Too much love to find to be stuck in a infinite JW tape delay.
Dan