Dad has always insisted that I must hate them since I left. Pure nuttiness.
That has been my experience also. Whatever the WT says are your motives, that's what they are. It doesn't matter what you say or do.
And yes, it is pure brainwashed nuttiness. I resigned as an elder some years back (10+) and got off the school to prevent them from trying to reappoint me. (It has worked, by the way.) Yet, every time the CO visits he includes a part in his service talk about ones getting upset about losing their privileges, and to get over it. It's kind of like if a sane person were sentenced to live in an insane asylum. It's a lot like that.