There is a fear factor in the "truth" - you cannot question, you cannot swerve too far from commenting at meetings now - most just re hash the paragraph that was already read.... I believe many are dis heartened, received a call last weekend from a very knowledgeable brother... many doubts and although I listened I did not tell him that I had the same thoughts as him.... you never know who you are speaking with and if they can turn on you to the elders to make a name for themselves....and although I am now doubting, I am not ready to go full fledge out....
I too, have missed meetings and low in service but not one elder or MS has checked to see what was going on.....I personally don't care anymore and know that the "love" that I once had is gone.... I guess theirs is as well...