So much sadness, so much hurt - brings so much stress in your life.. its so confusing , you don't know where to turn... but you sound like you are on the right track.. another thought, now that the abortion issue is raising its head and states are not allowing them, there will be more babies to be adopted..and as one mentioned, the children at the border in cages need parental guidance as well..
All the best to you in your quest.