Posts by Deleteandrestart

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Artificial Intelligence Is Here "Google's Deep Mind Explained! - Self Learning A.I. "

by Brokeback Watchtower in

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our world is about to change big time.. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tnuyctuzjpm.

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When the deep mind project starts to disobey we'll have to protect ourselves and make sure it can only live /function so long and then it will have to be dependent on us to renew its " life "

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Artificial Intelligence Is Here "Google's Deep Mind Explained! - Self Learning A.I. "

by Brokeback Watchtower in

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friends

our world is about to change big time.. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tnuyctuzjpm.

Deleteandrestart

Maybe we ourselves we're an AI project and decided to go it alone without our creator,After all a large part of our own intelligence is built in and the rest is learned in the university of life.

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for the many years i was mentally " in " the congregation, i equated the organisation as interchangeable with the persona of jehovah, in effect whatever the organisation said or thought, that was what jehovah thought and that was what jehovah said.... it was that simple.

so when i found out the ttatt and the cynical moves of the organisation over the years,including 1975 , the donation arrangements, the united nations, etc i was devastated and thought " where's jehovah in all of this?".

the god who i'd poured my heart out to on many occasions and who i thought was silently listening and hearing my pleas ..... was not there , .

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For the many years I was mentally " in " the congregation, I equated the organisation as interchangeable with the persona of Jehovah, in effect whatever the organisation said or thought, that was what Jehovah thought and that was what Jehovah said.... It was that simple.

So when I found out the TTATT and the cynical moves of the organisation over the years,including 1975 , the donation arrangements, the United Nations, etc I was devastated and thought " where's Jehovah in all of this?"

The God who I'd poured my heart out to on many occasions and who I thought was silently listening and hearing my pleas ..... Was not there ,

I found that people had hijacked the idea of God to control other people .

if there was a God he would not back this organisation because of what it's doing to people, otherwise he would be as culpable as they are .

So the kind God who would listen to you and the wise God who always knew best was vacant.

The point is where did this leave my belief system and my hopes.... Basically in ruins, and furthermore it's left a kind of scorched earth scene behind it , where if you can't rely on the one true God then nothing else will cut it .

Result .... Like many I suspect on here , a life full of unanswered questions and uncertainty, a hollow feeling, that you could at one time fix by praying to Jehovah, an annoying confusion that you once had all the answers and now you know you didn't really have any, it was all just an illusion and the reality of it all has left you confounded and alone,

all I can do is try to Delete and restart ,

How do some of you cope with the reality of once having everything and now left alone and having to rebuild?

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Angst and the Jehovah's Witness Mindset

by cofty in

there is no typical jw personality type.. any of us who were in the religion for a number of years will remember all sorts of individuals.

there is as much variety among jws as there is in the general population.

some were arrogant and judgemental but others were humble and kindly.

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They are living solely for the future and consider this life to be a load of refuse so that they can never really see any real merit or good in building up anything in this system, and so they get an anxiety mindset that anything in this life could get a hold on them and prevent them from entering the new system, flight and fight chemistry comes into play here and that alone brings angst , I am truly glad I am no longer subject it , because there's no peace in that mindset, and that's not even mentioning the wtbts " do more " or your not worthy ethos ,

i realy think rouge psychology people are running this cult the way they keep using trigger words to control the congregation, I feel sorry for them because I was once anxious and blinded by there corrupted mindscrew.

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RC 2016 Leaks & Releases

by wifibandit in

in an effort to reduce the number of posts, this year i will try to add links to this post.

now, on with the leaks & releases!

first up.... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0nzvwhflss4.

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I completely agree with the posters here , they have got it absolutely right in their assessment,

The message seems to be that normal pioneering is simply not enough..... It's got to hurt as well to be of any value to Jehovah..... In medieval times they quite liked self flagellation as a form of worship,

How the hell is this any different?

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what era do you feel like your starting out from?

by sowhatnow in

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friends

anyone else feel like they were just woke up from a long coma?

or emerged from a time capsule?.

i mean seriously, its rather creepy and disturbing , some of us are at sea without a compass .. like an orphan, like someone said, , heres a birth certificate go find yourself.

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That lost feeling is endemic with former witnesses,

when you leave you lose your whole support system and you also can lose your direction since every waking moment was angled towards the org , and when it's gone all that you had is gone too in one big catastrophe.... And your left alone and bereft not knowing where to turn, a novice in this world because you ignored it for so long..... We are all suffering the same I think.

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At a certain point in time.....

by Giordano in

at a certain point in time, i am sad to say, being a jw may have been my whole life.

i knew myself by what others said about me.

i was called brother by hundreds, and it sounded right.

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I too look back and see times when yes , particularly pioneering that I would look at all the people living their normal happy lives and think to myself " but what would the truth do for them? "

In my heart I knew that it would turn there normally happy lives upside down and cause them consternation and that they would be on the treadmill that I was on , and I didn't want to do that to people.....

i felt like Jim Cary in liar liar movie who couldn't tell a lie...... I felt like saying, when knocking on someone's door,

" listen to me and in under six months time you could be as tormented as I am having to report and get your field service hours in and you to could lose most of your free time and you too could experience the guilt fear and obligation I feel "

In my heart I knew these things but it's taken till now to break free and even now I'm only fading.

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THE NEWS IS BIGGER THAN DATELINE, BBC, CBC, ETC.

by AndersonsInfo in

if i told you that something bigger is on the horizon than dateline, bbc, cbc, sunday (australia), and all other tv programs which exposed the sexual child abuse cover-up by watchtower in 2002-2003, would you believe me?

have i ever misled you?

i'll answer that--no!

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My wild guess?

They've been shown up in the released Panama files for stashing loads of money away from the rank and file....

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THE NEWS IS BIGGER THAN DATELINE, BBC, CBC, ETC.

by AndersonsInfo in

if i told you that something bigger is on the horizon than dateline, bbc, cbc, sunday (australia), and all other tv programs which exposed the sexual child abuse cover-up by watchtower in 2002-2003, would you believe me?

have i ever misled you?

i'll answer that--no!

Deleteandrestart

I just want it to collapse entirely and then everyone including anyone who formerly associated with the congregation will be free because they will be exposed for what they are . We can only hope, I hope I live to see it .

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Alone

by Deleteandrestart in

since i woke up one year ago , i've been doing a somewhat controlled fade , the experience i've had has been a very solitary one , i don't mean by not seeing anyone i know because i know hundreds in several congregations and i was an elder .

but just coming to terms with the fact that this was no longer the solution to life's problems, that i'd wasted so much time, that as i sat in the kh and heard everyone comment, my heart was no longer in it , i no longer fitted in ..... i felt that they were in the congregation all under the spell or some form of hypnosis from the wtbts,.

it was like for the first time in my experience at the kh , that i was the only one to see what was actually going on , the indoctrination, the guilt tripping, i could see it all as clear as day , and yet i had as it where a metal gag over my mouth, i couldn't speak to anyone about it for fear of them turning me into the spiritual police.

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To sowhatnow...... I am still going because after practically a lifetime in the organisation I have so many people I know and some are really close friends.... I gently tried to wake some up but its hopeless, even with the most intelligent and perceptive friends the C D kicks in . It's amazing. My wife who is quite sick stopped coming more or less straight away under the guise of her illness,

but I refuse to let the wtbts deprive me of a lifetime of friends and contacts just because I no longer believe there deluded stories.