A hearty welcome to you, walker. There were no errors in your English. Consider a career as an English professor?
I second Ding's advice to read the New Testament with your own eyes.
You don't have an easy road in front of you. Especially with friends and family all in. Definitely start making connections with those on the outside. This journey is worth it. There is NOTHING like freedom to live your own life as you feel is right.