I'll always wonder that too. I'm thinking, tho, that I would have still had kids, since I've been obsessed with babies all my life. Would have been nice to have been told to do my best in school tho, and that my parents supported me in my education. That doesn't matter so much when the world is ending, AND you are female and can't get anywhere in the org anyway. The very best you could ever hope for was to be a circuit overseers wife....oh goody!
one thing that did help me a bit, was all the bible page turning. I am faster in the bible than most people in my church. It was all of that going back and forth, back and forth, pulling scriptures from here and there to prove bizarre stuff.