Life is funny.
i don't want to give away too much, but i would have liked to be an actress (very cliche' of course) not famous or anything, but it would have been great to get an earlier start, I know I could have played roles in local productions. I was just in a small role recently. I was good.
But honestly, what would have happened if I wasn't a witness, is the worldly boy I fell in love with in senior year of high school...we would have gotten married. The only reason we didn't is because he wasn't a witness and I couldn't hurt my parents. We found eachother much later on FB. He, strangely, had gotten into another cult, (weirder than jw's) and escaped from it. He got married and had the same number of children as I have. We limited our talking to eachother. We are both happily married. Now, 5 years later, he is slowly dying of a terrible neck cancer that took his voice, tongue and ability to eat by his mouth.
Realistically, if I hadn't been a witness, I would have been his wife. Watching him suffer every day. He is very spiritual and sees beauty in the process of himself dying.
it gives me really mixed feelings. Selfishly glad it's not me that has to raise the kids alone. but being so far away...feeling really helpless.
Im not grateful I was a witness. I'm grateful for my husband who followed me out. And he's healthy.