Harder
Until recently a family member who is a elder was sending me a link so I could stream the meeting , only checked to get title of talk In case they asked but now he be instructed that zoom should be used so been encouraged to contact local elders so I can join , never had any contact with elders for about 4-5 months .
They don't have a contact number or my address (because of a family issue not trust them to reveal my address) expecting that soon the stuff will hit the fan as I have no interest in contacting them esp with the redress issue and the Swiss court case .
So only been playing along for my family (7 members) never been overly outspoken about about my feelings about JW beliefs ,knowing that when they find out that I no longer believe that they will shun me as they have done to other family members.