"Over the years she was not so urged to satisy her parents. This was the moment when she asked herself about her activity. "What am I doing here actually and with what do I lollygag my life, lifetime that is valueable? I go from house to house and realise that nobody wants to listen anyway. Nobody wants to see me here. I disturb the private sphere."
Masha lost interest in the service and the congregations. Her change didnt remain undiscovered. Sheperds visit her to "retrieve her to God". But Masha felt surpressed by the "Love Bomb" and the - how she felt - "put-on friendliness" of the disciples of Jehovah.
The whole article appeared under the column: Manipulation, abuse and loss
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From her video: "Who I am":
"I live alone since age of 16, now I am 18, I like the uncommon, in my body flows german and russian blood, german are more courteous and reserved, Russian more direct and provocative, what makes it often difficult to adopt to new situations. The older one grows the more independent one gets. Now I am living in Berlin a colourful and loud city, therefore I am exactly at the right place. You can be here like you want. The city is in constant change like fashion, therefore I makes an education as fashion designer, the multitude of colours, shapes and possiblites to employ them fascinates me, from the design till the production..All steps are interesting, i like to watch an idea growing and to create things. Althoug the most fashion shows last only few minutes, much work is behind it. Before a colletion gets on the market many designs have to be performed and fabrics have to be selected. Everything happens under serious time pressure. Everything is not so easy as may be the impression."
"The same was true in my past life. From early age I was urged to her seemingly happiness. I grew up in cult. There I was told what I shall do and especially what I should avoid. I didnt have the opportunity to freely develop myself. But however I get out and the time has come. .. I have found my happiness and want to focus now on my dreams. The whole thing I am sharing in my video clips with you, share with you the big and the little moments as well, the little moments without which make life joyful".