Ethos,
What made Ba'laam change course? Oh, that's right, he didn't despite divine intervention. What made Saul of Tarsus change when he received divine intervention? He wanted to, no one forced him. There was no changing Saul's course until the right influence from Christ came along, and Saul had to want to change. Christ also knew Saul would change given the right motivation. What is your motivation, really? If your motivation is to search for truth, not " the truth " as JW's say then you will find it. If you want to protect men's ideologies or shield yourself from any hardship that knowing truth may bring, then you won't because you will never search for it. If you don't love truth, really love truth, then you will be content to live under an operation of error. Just empty yourself, and stop relying on men's thoughts. When God's word says not to put your trust in men, that is what it means. Do yourself a favor and stop reading the Watchtower for 2 months. Just read God's word and pray for Holy Spirit to see truth. Jesus said the Holy Spirit would lead you into all truth. It will, but you have to want it. You must be fed up with half-truths and lies, even lies from those who think they are your Spititual Mother protecting you from the outside world. So do you WANT to know truth? No one can answer that for you.