((((((((((((((Valis)))))))))))))))))
i was just talking about this yesterday. i was wondering what it would have been like to grow up 'normal' like the other kids in school. i bet i had to go sit in the library more times than the goddam librarian. i never felt like i fit in either.
i remember the day that i found out that my family's love would be, in fact, conditional. i lost it. i cried like i've never cried before. it was like someone reached into my chest, pulled out my heart, and smashed it with a hammer. i felt completely and utterly alone for the first time in my life.
a person should never have to question their family's love. unfortunately, we aren't like other people. we have to find real friends who love us unconditionally because our families can't seem to grasp the concept.
i'm so sorry you're feeling bad. i wish i could make it better. you are so valued here and you have been such a generous host and made so many people feel welcome and included. i have really come to admire that about you. i look forward to meeting you one day!
i've never had a brother. maybe i'll adopt you as my brother.
love, riz