the misery of knowing something is wrong and you keep telling yourself it must be you. Convincing yourself that the better part of you is arrogant, evil and prideful, the only possible result is depression and constant sadness. - SL
Yes for years I kept thinking it must be me, everyone else is happy with the stuff they say from the platform or write in the watchtower. Nobody thinks they are contradicting themselves or being harsh about people who have doubts.
Depression is the only result if this goes on too long, I agree. I remember it well. Note to self, don't ever doubt yourself if your doubts are well founded, eight million people can be wrong.