Thanks for your replies everyone.
Ive been awake to TTATT for about 9 months now.
I got glued to this forum and the exjw Reddit sub ... Started doing loads of research, started picking apart every meeting item in my mind.
I then found myself becoming depressed - I went through a couple of weeks where I just didn't want to do anything, everything was a struggle work, socialising etc...
I guessed it was because I was reading so much on the forums - and battling with my own mind that I felt depressed so I decided to stop reading the forums and just live with the fact that it isn't the truth but get on with it because of family etc...
Now a few weeks later I'm suffering from some strange symptoms (I can't give too much away on here at the moment) - my doctor can't find anything wrong with me... But I think it's down to subconscious anxiety because of knowing TTATT but trying to carry on as normal.
I realise that in the long run I would be better off if I just "came clean" to family and explained to them how I feel about things... But that would open up the biggest can of worms ever! :(
Any tips would be really appreciated.
fizzle