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  wizard of Oz JW style

  by Kevin McFree in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  a one year special episode for watchtower to enjoy watching this week ;).

  https://youtu.be/1fx3vrkvaci.

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  Phoebe

  I loved it! I watch all your videos again and again. I find a lot of the exJW videos seem to trigger me into feeling depressed but your videos always make me smile and laugh, thank you so much for making them. I greatly appreciate all the hard work that goes into them.
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  Two Sad an Interesting Stories From When I Hosted the Ex-Jehovah's Witness Meetup Group in Portland

  by new boy in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  for many years i hosted the ex-jehovah’s witness meet up group in portland oregon.

  i heard a lot of sad stories about what people had lost trying to get away from the jehovah’s witnesses.

  there were whole families that were wiped out.

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  Phoebe

  I have no words....

  The devastation this cult causes is beyond anything I ever could have imagined.

  They will never stop. It will go on and on. I wish we could stop them.

  I'm looking forward to the book, too.
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  Nothing in life is stable as a Jehovah's Witness...

  by silentbuddha in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  at least in hindsight it would appear so.

  i remember as a small kid not making friends because ultimately they were going to die.

  i never saved anything because money would be useless in the new world.

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  Phoebe

  When I was cleaning the most disgusting of places as my life as a cleaner, I would console myself with the fact that I wasn't living the real life. That was yet to come. All I had to do was get through this system as best as I could because my real life was ahead of me and very, very soon.

  When I got too old to clean and now find myself literally scraping by financially and with no nice pension because the end was imminent so I didn't need a pension and anyway, on minimum cleaners wages could never afford to contribute to one! I am dismayed to learn that elders in my congregation - yes, the one's advising me to put the kingdom first - are now retiring and all have private pensions!

  I hate myself for being such a damn fool :(
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  How do you feel you have progressed ?

  by stuckinarut2 in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  in the months or years since leaving the organization, how do you think you have progressed as a person?.

  (or if you have regressed too i guess?).

  what aspects of personal development are you happy with?.

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  Phoebe

  It's interesting and good to see how well people are doing.

  For me. I was totally traumatized at first. Then I was really angry.

  If I knew what I know now as a young person, it may have been better but when you learn it at 64...well, you feel as if someone stole your life and you have so many, many regrets.

  So, here I am now at 65 still struggling to keep my financial head above water when people my age are enjoying their retirement and mostly because I was never given a chance to be educated and have a career of any sort. I was never allowed to question anything and I was so completely indoctrinated by the time I reached adulthood that every single thing in my life from then on was governed by the WT. I was constantly waiting for that 'just around the corner' new world.

  But I think I was most angry because my faith was taken. I read in a book once that the WT 'smashes through peoples faith' and that is so true.

  So now I am at a point where, in order to make sense of it all, I am trying to look back on a life in the religion and find the good bits and there were good bits. Pioneering at 16 was fun, attending conventions and volunteering and meeting people was fun, too. Spending time with the 'anointed' was a respite from my difficult home life. I enjoyed being with those elderly and very kind people they were lovely to me. I also never smoked and although my childhood wasn't happy and I envied my school mates who were allowed so much freedom, two of them became drug addicts and one was pregnant at 14...so maybe it protected me too, who knows?

  And, if I hadn't been in the religion and my husband hadn't come into it we would never have met and the children...they would never have been born. So as I work hard to come to terms with the shock of being lied to and the anger that followed, I am working hard to look back and see there was some good that came of it as well.

  But the very best thing about leaving the WT, and this comes about after a year of intense sessions with a psychologist, is the clarity of mind. I quite literally feel as if my mind was once chained up in a cage and now it is set free. I can't even explain how good that feels. I see things so clearly now. I am no longer beating myself up for being a miserably bad JW, I no longer control my facial expressions when I see something bad on TV for fear Satan can see that something scares me (yes, I really did that?) and will use that fear to get me.

  I know most JWs are lovely people and victims just like I was and now I want to find a way to help people get out.

  I am learning to be a nicer person and I am happier than I have ever been and learning to adapt to life outside the WT.

  I also have made some incredibly lovely new friends via this forum which has been wonderful.
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  The biggest news of the year for Mr. and Mrs. Totally ADD

  by Still Totally ADD in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  this is bigger than christmas and birthdays wrap into one.

  thanks to the australian royal commission our youngest son has woke up.

  we received a e-mail from him tonight where he apologized to us for shunning us all these years, how bad he felt for doing this.

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  Phoebe

  Wonderful news! I am so happy for you. This gives hope to people with loved ones still in.
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  So, I did a thing ... Shunned VIDcast #1 - Secrets - Jehovah's Witnesses and Cult Life

  by dubstepped in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  alright, many of you know me from the this jw life and shunned podcasts along with my inane ramblings on here.

  i just made my first video and put myself out there on youtube along with my podcast episodes that are on there now.

  i put my podcast audio up on there as videos and new people are subscribing and finding it through that.

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  Phoebe

  Brilliant! I will be following too!
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  The urban legends we heard as JWs!

  by stuckinarut2 in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  how often have we heard some sort of sensationalist urban legend as jws?.

  here is an example i was told as a kid:.

  the experience of a sister who knocked on a door and was greeted by a big fierce looking man- intimidating and mean.

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  Phoebe

  Has anyone mentioned this one yet? Sorry haven't read everything.

  It was at a convention, never knew if it was true or not.

  The man that was very ill in hospital and could see from his bed in the ward, a bird making a nest outside in a tree and he watched it and watched it and then when the chicks had fledged he asked if someone might go and get him the empty nest and when they did he looked at it and it has a piece of a tract inside it with the WT name and address. Said something like 'for further information...'

  They said it was a true story but I never knew if it was or not.
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  what will be the next thing

  by pepperheart in

  1. watchtower
  2. bible

  hi what will be the next thing that watchtower will cut,if you say the leaked video that fay put up the finance guy from the watchtower was saying that they had spent $26 million in about 6 months.

  so if they are getting through money that fast then they are going to have problems.

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  Phoebe

  I think they are sly and probably move money around all over the place. I don't know that things are that bad.

  But on the other hand as anyone watched this:

  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qDyCTOkFyE0
  
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  What are the JWs saying about Trump?

  by Wild_Thing in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  as much as jws say they are neutral, they can't help but discuss politics and label them as either bad or good and somehow connect it back to their dogma.

  i remember hearing them discuss it all the time when i was a jw.

  i can't help but wonder what the r&f are saying about trump and the many, many controversial events surrounding him.

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  Phoebe

  My uber pioneer friend in Canada told me they excitedly wake up every morning to see what Trump has done next and thinks Trump will bring on the end of this system. She also says it's clear Jehovah God is pulling Satan in by a hook. So, I think a lot of JWs are excited by Trump.
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  JW's walking at the street

  by Gorbatchov in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  yesterday a group of 4 jw's were walking at the street nearby.

  the impression was so arrogant.

  so superior.

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  Phoebe

  Talking of JWS walking down the street. I just watched one of XJDUB's videos on Youtube and I could not believe the language of one of the 'brothers' he saw walking down the street towards his k.hall -- presumably where XJDUB was doing his protest.

  I was really shocked to see this older brother direct such venom at XJDUB, calling him an *a..hole* saying he would 'beat the s***t out of him' and threatened to punch XJDUB in the face (I believe this 'brother' had already punch XJDUB in the stomach on a previous meeting)

  Where was the fruitage of the spirit? This was a mature JW - possibly an elder? I just never expected a witness to talk to someone like that, no matter the circumstances.