Hello Ahava
i hope you are still here. Please don’t rush into baptism despite any pressure you may get to do so. Once baptised if you change your mind there are massive consequences.
go to JWFacts and do your research.
I still believe in God and I was a witness for over 60 years. Do I believe the GB are from God, absolutely not! Do I think JWS are God’s one true religion? No.
It sounds like you love the structure and friendship in the organization but this isn’t enough to make a life long commitment to something you are unsure of.
please make sure you know what you are doing.