Have DA'd myself nearly 3 months ago. Now I am part of this world but I feel myself the odd one out. Something inside me is still blocking me to do the things I have been longing to do while I was still a JW, such as attending birthday parties, sex, etc...
Just last nite, I was on the way to attend a birthday party. But while I was about to reach the destination, I stopped, turn around and went back home. Several opportunites in the past 3 months to engage in immorality but I didn't go all the way.
Now I am worried about my military obligation in a year's time. Will I be able to get myself involve in bayonet fighting?
Been 16 years under bondage by the org. (since birth). The only sin so far is smoking and heavy petting .