Posts by sinboi

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Have I Drifted Too Far?

by sinboi in

i was shocked, really shocked.

what i am doing now is so acceptable to the friends around me.. my friends are all doing it.

it is so normal in the society,.

We called ourselves “The Ruthless Tigers” in 2023. We fell and got injured due to a sabotage. We recovered and are very angry and fierce now over our defeat. In 2024 we called ourselves “THE ROARING TIGERS”. They have no need to see us. Just hearing our name will make them tremble!

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Have I Drifted Too Far?

by sinboi in

i was shocked, really shocked.

what i am doing now is so acceptable to the friends around me.. my friends are all doing it.

it is so normal in the society,.

sinboi

The problem with posting online is that we do not know who will read your post.

The culture of the reader may be entirely different from the writer's. Hence what may seem normal to the writer may be a big NO NO to the reader.

Almost everybody here in my country knows what military life is like. My dad has gone through military training. Even my granddad who is now 60 plus has been in the army. So what I said in that post was not shocking to them.

It may be shocking to people who do not know what military life is like.

Hence it is shocking for them to hear me said:

“WE GANG-RAPED AN EFFEMINATE.”

The army is an all male environment. A soldier has only two choices in a battle. To kill or be killed.

The whole unit’s life can be at risk by just a single soldier’s actions or inactions.

We hate sabotagers. We hate those who cause the whole unit to suffer or to get punished. True, all men are imperfect. We all make mistakes. The whole platoon will get punished. This is understandable. But if it is always you that make mistakes and because of you the whole platoon get punished, then god bless u. Mostly, these type of people will just get beaten up.

A camp consists of several platoons. Four or five outstanding soldiers were selected from each platoon to form a unit for competing with other camps. I was in that unit. Our camp got a grade 4 in 2022. We aim for grade 5 in 2023. It is difficult but we are confident we can make it. We boast that we have real men, tough men in our unit. Our morale and fighting spirit was very strong. We were so confident of getting grade 5 , that we make plans how to celebrate when we get that grade.

But that effeminate spoil everything. Instead of getting grade 5, we dropped to grade 3. All because of what that effeminate did. We feel so disappointed, dejected, humiliated and disgraced. We are ashamed to go back to our former platoons. We had disgraced our whole camp.

While we were fuming and mourning over our loss, that effeminate came in to the bathroom. One guy confronted him. If he say sorry and just leave, I think he will be okay. Instead of saying sorry, he provoke us further by saying in a effeminate way that there is no need to feel sad, we didn’t get it this year, we can get it next year. My friends moved towards him. As I am standing closest to him, they signal me to restrained him. I did so. I thought they wanted to beat him up. If they do so, I will definitely join them in giving him a few blows. Instead they stripped him and 3 guys penetrated him. I did not penetrate him, just restraining him.

Following 2023’s failure, I am sure our unit will be more motivated to get that grade in 2024. But I will not be there to share their joy as I am already out from the miliary.

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Have I Drifted Too Far?

by sinboi in

i was shocked, really shocked.

what i am doing now is so acceptable to the friends around me.. my friends are all doing it.

it is so normal in the society,.

sinboi

There is another incident in the army that I mentioned in the post. It shouldn't be shocking to anyone because that is very common in the military. I will touch on it maybe later tonite or 2morrow. By the way, my time is +8GMT.

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Have I Drifted Too Far?

by sinboi in

i was shocked, really shocked.

what i am doing now is so acceptable to the friends around me.. my friends are all doing it.

it is so normal in the society,.

sinboi

I don’t have a copy of the post. I can remember what I wrote about but I couldn’t remember how I wrote it.

I can just remember I said something like :

“I committed a crime but that should not be a crime.”

To some, it may appear that I am an unrepentant criminal bragging about his crime. Shocking indeed!

But to me, I have the misconception that I have committed a crime by having sex with a minor when in fact , I have not.

When I said it shouldn’t be a crime, really to me it shouldn’t be a crime. Sex among the young is so common. A girl in my class left school because she is pregnant. The father of the child could be the rich boy from the next class. This case is known throughout the school. The teachers knew about it, the principal knew about it. But no police came to arrest the boy. That is why I said it shouldn’t be a crime at all.

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Have I Drifted Too Far?

by sinboi in

i was shocked, really shocked.

what i am doing now is so acceptable to the friends around me.. my friends are all doing it.

it is so normal in the society,.

sinboi

From what I see in the notification area (I could not see his whole comment as my post is removed), someone commented that I need to go to jail. If he is referring to the incident with the 14 yrs old ger, then I think it is my fault. I myself has the misconception that I have committed a crime when I wrote that post. I said I hv committed a crime but it shouldn't be a crime at all. But what I did was not a crime. I read only the last part of that law and did not read the first part.The crime is "having sex with a minor." I did have sex with that ger (a minor) and so I say I hv committed a crime. But in fact I have not. The full law states that ADULTS who have sex with a minor is a crime. But I was just 15 yrs 9 or 10 months old when that happen. I was not even 16 at that time. Both of us are minors.

But if he has read my post properly, he should have known that that incident happen a few months after I DA at 15. He should have corrected me and told me that it is not a crime. It was only after I read his comment that I need to go to jail that I asked my friend about it. He told me it is only for adults who did it.

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Have I Drifted Too Far?

by sinboi in

i was shocked, really shocked.

what i am doing now is so acceptable to the friends around me.. my friends are all doing it.

it is so normal in the society,.

sinboi

They barred me for what I have posted. This I think is due to the many complaints on my post.

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Have I Drifted Too Far?

by sinboi in

i was shocked, really shocked.

what i am doing now is so acceptable to the friends around me.. my friends are all doing it.

it is so normal in the society,.

sinboi

I was shocked, really shocked. What I am doing now is so acceptable to the friends around me.

My friends are all doing it. It is so normal in the society,

I posted my present life in reddit’s exjw site. I expected them to be pleased with how far I have drifted from that cult.

I was shocked when I was scolded by them , my post was taken down and I was barred from the community. I was in fact disfellowshipped by exjw.

When I was 13 and my dad refuses to let me join an uniform group, I have vowed to do the things they told me not to do. They could not give me a reason that I can agree on why I cannot do them.

My parents wanted me to be home as soon as school ends. I complied. But I have several hours at school everyday and they are not around. I talk, joke and played with my classmates and they accepted me in their group. This was when I was 13 and thus I have no difficulty having friends and adapting to the world after I DA. But to please my parents, I acted as a good jw at home.

After I DA at 15, my parents did not chase me out.I still pretend to be a good boy in front of them. 2 years after I DA, I have to join the army. I was no longer a jw for the past 2 years but I still feel very guilty joining the army. I asked myself: I have already been out for 2 yrs, but I have made little or no progress, how much longer must I wait to get rid of all these bullshit!

Now I have completed my 2 years in the army. I am a completed change person. When exjw knew what I was doing, even they DF me. Have I gone too far??? My parents wanted me to be no part of this world. I purposely wanted to be part of this world. I wanted to be a worldly person. Is this wrong?

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My parents did not really shun me when I left but I am now breaking their hearts…

by sinboi in

if they have shunned me and chase me out of the house when i leave the cult, i would not give a damn.

i can still feel their love and concern for me even now.. though i have moved out voluntarily when i joined the army, i am afraid that the life i am living now will break their hearts.

i am now a bartender in a bar and am cohabiting with a woman.

sinboi

Would you be more lenient with a person who was forced to do something bad than a person who chooses to do bad?

It is same with the army issue. All male citizens at 18 years of age need to join the army. Failure to do so will result in a jail sentence. My parents were duly aware of that and knows in advance I will have to join the army.

The main problem is that I have a 180 degrees change in me before and after the army. When I DA at 15, I was still somewhat POMI. This give my parents the hope that I will return one day.

But after I moved out, and under the bad influence from my army and the enticement of this world , my life have changed. I have become a full POMO.

If my parents were to find out how I am living my life, they will be shocked. They will be sad and disappointed that I have no intention of returning.

My dad should be able to take it but my mum won't. She will have her dream shattered. All because of ME!

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My parents did not really shun me when I left but I am now breaking their hearts…

by sinboi in

if they have shunned me and chase me out of the house when i leave the cult, i would not give a damn.

i can still feel their love and concern for me even now.. though i have moved out voluntarily when i joined the army, i am afraid that the life i am living now will break their hearts.

i am now a bartender in a bar and am cohabiting with a woman.

sinboi

If they have shunned me and chase me out of the house when I leave the cult, I would not give a damn. But they didn’t. I can still feel their love and concern for me even now.

Though I have moved out voluntarily when I joined the army, I am afraid that the life I am living now will break their hearts. I am now a bartender in a bar and am cohabiting with a woman. I know my parents will not approve of my life now.

I have to lie to my parents that I am a technician and am living alone.

They may have to shun me if they know how I living my life now. I would not blame them. I deserved to be shunned. I have broken their hearts.

Please offer me some advice.

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We're you regular at all the meetings?

by Hellothere in

we're you regular at the 3 meetings days watchtower hade?

i remember our was tuesday, thursdays and saturdays.

in reality it's crazy they hade so many meetings.

sinboi

For almost 16 years, I have no choice. I have to go with my parents. Needed to go even if I have a school exam the next day. Never regret that I D/Aed myself at 16.