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Free to sin but still cannot bring myself to do it

by sinboi in

have da'd myself nearly 3 months ago.

now i am part of this world but i feel myself the odd one out.

something inside me is still blocking me to do the things i have been longing to do while i was still a jw, such as attending birthday parties, sex, etc.... just last nite, i was on the way to attend a birthday party.

sinboi

He is powerful. SO WHAT??? I wouldn't worship someone I can't respect. Kill me now! I don't want to see how he kill babies at armeggedon!!! evil d.o.g! worst than animals!

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Free to sin but still cannot bring myself to do it

by sinboi in

have da'd myself nearly 3 months ago.

now i am part of this world but i feel myself the odd one out.

something inside me is still blocking me to do the things i have been longing to do while i was still a jw, such as attending birthday parties, sex, etc.... just last nite, i was on the way to attend a birthday party.

sinboi

yhwh = allah = evil d.o.gs or maybe they are the same d.o.g

I have often told my friends that ISIS is not worshipping god but worshipping the devil.

Just recently, I watch a film on WW2 and saw japanese soldiers snatching babies from the mother, throw the baby up in the air and pierce the baby with the bayonet. I was so worked up that I shouted 'Animal!'

When I was told to read Deut 13, before I read it, I knew that it must have something to do with killing pagan believers. So I am prepared b4 I read it. So true enough, they were instructed to kill the inhabitants of the land even the cattle.... what? even the cattles? What about the babies then? Scenes of japanese soldiers killing babies flood my mind again.

I tell ppl that ISIS is worshipping the devil. Who then have I been worshipping for the past 16 years?

Now I understand why Hitler wants to exterminate the jews! if WW3 break out, the jews and japanese need to be exterminated too!!!

Look at the pic below. This was in Nanking during WW2. Now visualized that this same thing has happen in ancient israel and it was instructed by that evil d.o.g yhwh!!!!!

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has any one had this feeling

by Akid48 in

i remember having this feeling when i was younger that something was off when it came to meetings and the people there seemed just off.i had feelings like that when i was like 5 or 6 and i would say i was kinda dumb back then but still i had a feeling like that when i would not have that often.still to this day i dont know what got me to have that feeling i was just wanting to know if any had this feeling to and still cant remember what made your mind give you a red flag..

sinboi

One more thing is i dont sleep the best so when i have to go to meeting and go pass the time i go to sleep for school.

why don't you tell your dad you headache, cannot go meeting.

When I don't feel like going to meetings, I tell my dad I headache, my leg cramp in school after basketball, etc...sometimes it works but sometimes it didn't...need to sign up for acting class. :{

But if I fail at plan A, I have plan B. At the meeting, I closed my eyes and pretend to be sick. I no need to participate in the meeting....Haha..maybe the people here in this forum will PM you and tell you not to mix around with me..I bad influence...

I have a picture for you...smile....

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Not liked

by Akid48 in

in my kingdom hall people see me as rude but to me i dont understand how.for me having to talk to adults is not bad but for me its one thing if i dont know you and so i have my guard up at all times and i have a fuck off tone in my voice.but some of the brothers seem they like kids to much.. one more thing i have the a fuck off tone some times is because a lot of brothers i kinda know (hint kinda know) ask me about my school life.what i mean is not ''hey how's school?

'' i mean and im not joking when i say i have been asked.

''so have you had to turn down any girls yet?

sinboi

Hah? 13? I thought I am the youngest here! So I need to take care of you..

I think the jw dislike me more than you. They often say when I was younger, I am very obedient but now have changed. I do things very unwilling. I think they never go through the growing up process...They say I worldly...like to mix around with unbelievers...

You 13...not baptise? Don't be baptised. If you are baptised and you leave the borg, you will be shunned. By them..nevermind. Shun by your parents very painful.

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Stabed

by Akid48 in

my family has been nice acting after a family member eavesdropped on me and learn that i don't like jws any more.but how mad and the feeling of getting backstabed when i had my hole family got mad at me at one time.i love my family and understand why they acted that way but that feeling of getting backstabed never goes away i have tryed to put the feeling in back of my mind but he always comes back when i talk to a family..

sinboi

hahaha! so it is not only me who get back stabbed.

An elder's son. Same school as me. Reported to his father I donated to Salvation Army. Reported that I am checking anti wt materials. After I DA'd, I wanted to be alone as I am facing problems with my dad and mom. He was the one who tell ppl in school I no longer a witness and whatever I do have nothing to do him or the org. My friends start gathering around me asking why I leave. Got so annoyed by it.

He better not step on my tail again. I no longer jw. I can beat him up any time. I am really waiting for a reason to beat him up!

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Not a lot of young people

by Akid48 in

i have look around and im counting 5-18 for young aka kids or teens we only have 4 includeing me that can think on there own and are teens.the only other kids there are 3 5 or to young to even think that there mom or dad are wrong on any thing.. just wanting to know if any if any one see this at a kingdom hall..

sinboi

Why do you think I hate to attend meetings? No KH here in my country. We meet in small groups. I was the only teen in the group.

A year ago, I can still meet another 2 teens during the assembly. But now, they are in detention barracks for taking a stand on the military issue.

There is another teen. An elder's son. A 'holier than thou' type of person. I can't click with him.

He same school as me. He is the one trying to lord it over me in school. He is the one who tell his father I make a donation to the salvation army. He is the one that reported that I check out anti WT material with my classmates. After I DA'd, he is the one who tell ppl in school I no longer a witness....

I like your avatar, Akid48...

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Free to sin but still cannot bring myself to do it

by sinboi in

have da'd myself nearly 3 months ago.

now i am part of this world but i feel myself the odd one out.

something inside me is still blocking me to do the things i have been longing to do while i was still a jw, such as attending birthday parties, sex, etc.... just last nite, i was on the way to attend a birthday party.

sinboi

Me :

Quran - for muslim. It is the most evil religious book , telling believers to chop off heads of non-believer.

Anders Andersen :

Read Deuteronomy 13, then think about how it compares to what you wrote above...remember, Deut. 13 is just a single chapter. There's a lot more similar verses in the Bible...

You know? I have come across these type of verses when I'm a JW.Nothing wrong about it. J have the right to clean the land of pagan worshippers. The only question I have in mind then is his instruction to 'take female captives as wives.' Wondering whether it means raping them. But I quickly suppressed any doubts, remembering the words 'your thoughts are not my thoughts'.

But now, in the light of what I have said about the quran....I see it from another viewpoint.....

Even cattles need to be killed! Crazy D.O.G! So it means that babies are also killed! That YHWH is EVIL!!!!!!

I have been worshipping this evil D.O.G for 16 years!!!!

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My Mothers Ultimate Rejection

by What Now? in

i went into my mother's office to leave her a small note to say that we love and miss her and would love to get together.

i found this on her desk.

this is jehovah's witnesses.

sinboi

I am new here. I understand and share your pain. Please be strong!

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Free to sin but still cannot bring myself to do it

by sinboi in

have da'd myself nearly 3 months ago.

now i am part of this world but i feel myself the odd one out.

something inside me is still blocking me to do the things i have been longing to do while i was still a jw, such as attending birthday parties, sex, etc.... just last nite, i was on the way to attend a birthday party.

sinboi

deegee -Why are you right and they wrong?

Very good question. I thought about it for over 30 mins. Here is my answer :

I was told since birth that it is the word of god. For 16 years, nobody has proven to me it is not.

OK. The words above pass the audit. I think I have misunderstood your intention earlier. I thought you wanted to belittle me for being a fool in believing that the Bible is the word of God.I have got myself heated up. If we were to be talking face2face, it would result in an argument, maybe even a fight. Luckily I pause before hitting the post button.

I read your previous posts and know your intention is good. Your intention is to question my definition of 'sin'. Sin against who? God? How I know I will be sinning against God? The Bible. How u know the bible is from God?

Come on. I have been out for less than 3 months. You cannot expect me to forget everything I learn for the past 16 years in less than 3 months. Do you? Give me time please...

I am using the Bible to throw out all the wt rubbish. But many are stubbornly stuck in my brain. Just like last nite. Maybe it was late and I was extremely tired. When I read Honest post, I thought the devil is speaking. Don't know why I associate Honest "It is not a sin" to the serpent's words to Eve "You will not die". It scared the hell out of me and I nearly wanted to wake up my dad. Only in the morning did I realise it was the wt words " The devil is waiting to devour those leaving Jehovah's Organization" that have caused me to react that way. I have thrown out these words from my conscious mind but it is still staying in my subconscious..

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Free to sin but still cannot bring myself to do it

by sinboi in

have da'd myself nearly 3 months ago.

now i am part of this world but i feel myself the odd one out.

something inside me is still blocking me to do the things i have been longing to do while i was still a jw, such as attending birthday parties, sex, etc.... just last nite, i was on the way to attend a birthday party.

sinboi

punkofnice - What is your first language? Where are you from?

Thanks for your comment and link to jwfacts. I knew of this site and have visited it several times.

My 1st language is English. I am from Asia. Sorry, can't disclose my exact country. There are not many JWs here. They can easily find out who I am (dA/d 3 mths ago, age 16). They will then pressure my dad to kick me out of the house for visiting "apostates" sites.

Smiddy3- Obviously you are under the misguided belief that everybody who leaves the JW religion is going to embark on an orgy of sin and depravity .

No, I strongly disagree with that. I wanted to experiment with sex solely due to the physical needs of my body and peer pressure from my friends. Even while I was a JW, I masturbated daily thinking about sex. I have known several ex JWs who live a godly way of life. Some of them join the churches and one switch to buddhism.

JWs are a white washed grave. Many of them are just a bunch of self rightous ppl.