Posts by sinboi

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Just a story to share

by sinboi in

guy a and guy b were in bondage for a long time.

during this period, they have endured a lot of suffering and hardship.. somehow, they managed to escape from their captors.. guy a was very happy that he regained his freedom.

he put everything behind him, work hard and succeeded in building up a career.. 10 years later, he met guy b. he asked guy b what he has been doing for the past 10 years.. guy b replied :" i can't forget how we suffered while in bondage.

sinboi

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Just a story to share

by sinboi in

guy a and guy b were in bondage for a long time.

during this period, they have endured a lot of suffering and hardship.. somehow, they managed to escape from their captors.. guy a was very happy that he regained his freedom.

he put everything behind him, work hard and succeeded in building up a career.. 10 years later, he met guy b. he asked guy b what he has been doing for the past 10 years.. guy b replied :" i can't forget how we suffered while in bondage.

sinboi

Yeah..good.

I think Guy B would have more satisfaction than guy A....

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Free to sin but still cannot bring myself to do it

by sinboi in

have da'd myself nearly 3 months ago.

now i am part of this world but i feel myself the odd one out.

something inside me is still blocking me to do the things i have been longing to do while i was still a jw, such as attending birthday parties, sex, etc.... just last nite, i was on the way to attend a birthday party.

sinboi

hahaha! another 63 years??? I have seen people around 40 y.o. needs viagra already...that is why I'm so eager to use it now before it becomes useless....

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Just a story to share

by sinboi in

guy a and guy b were in bondage for a long time.

during this period, they have endured a lot of suffering and hardship.. somehow, they managed to escape from their captors.. guy a was very happy that he regained his freedom.

he put everything behind him, work hard and succeeded in building up a career.. 10 years later, he met guy b. he asked guy b what he has been doing for the past 10 years.. guy b replied :" i can't forget how we suffered while in bondage.

sinboi

I like your story, Morpheus.

I think we need to learn to let go.

Many of us are carrying a heavy load of baggage containing our past failures, past mistakes and past grievances, especially from the wt bondage.

We really need to put this baggage down and move on.

I know it's easier said than done. We may not be able to put the whole baggage down all at once. But I'm sure we can slowly throw off the rubbish in our baggage bit by bit. It will then be lighter and make it easier for us to move forward..

10 years from now...will we still be under wt bondage even though we are physically out of this cult a long time ago????

Just some thoughts from a 16 y.o. kid....

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Just a story to share

by sinboi in

guy a and guy b were in bondage for a long time.

during this period, they have endured a lot of suffering and hardship.. somehow, they managed to escape from their captors.. guy a was very happy that he regained his freedom.

he put everything behind him, work hard and succeeded in building up a career.. 10 years later, he met guy b. he asked guy b what he has been doing for the past 10 years.. guy b replied :" i can't forget how we suffered while in bondage.

sinboi

Guy A and guy B were in bondage for a long time. During this period, they have endured a lot of suffering and hardship.

Somehow, they managed to escape from their captors.

Guy A was very happy that he regained his freedom. He put everything behind him, work hard and succeeded in building up a career.

10 years later, he met guy B. He asked guy B what he has been doing for the past 10 years.

Guy B replied :" I can't forget how we suffered while in bondage. I can't get over it. I wanted revenge!"

You know what guy A said to him?

"I never knew you are still in bondage to them for the past 10 years!"

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I have enjoyed the shunning in the past. But why not now?

by sinboi in

i am prepared for shunning when i send in my da letter.

my dad was furious when he comes back from overseas and find out that i have da myself.

yes, i do regret not talking to him first before i da...i also know that my mom is crying in her room.. but they didn't chase me out of the house.

sinboi

Diogenesister, I have visited exjwreddit. I have also sign up as 'newkidintown16'.

I may not be able to post much as I need to prepare for my cambridge exams. This is my final year in high school.

You will be an instant hero I have to say!

You must be kidding me. Even a 13 yr old kid need to pm me and tell me that I "have just made one attempt..need to keep trying" after he read this topic..

I only hope that I will not make a fool of myself when I post here and @exjwreddit.

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I have enjoyed the shunning in the past. But why not now?

by sinboi in

i am prepared for shunning when i send in my da letter.

my dad was furious when he comes back from overseas and find out that i have da myself.

yes, i do regret not talking to him first before i da...i also know that my mom is crying in her room.. but they didn't chase me out of the house.

sinboi

It's all because of my dad's words : "Take care of your mom."

If he has said :"Don't make your mom angry!", I would have reacted in a different way.

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I have enjoyed the shunning in the past. But why not now?

by sinboi in

i am prepared for shunning when i send in my da letter.

my dad was furious when he comes back from overseas and find out that i have da myself.

yes, i do regret not talking to him first before i da...i also know that my mom is crying in her room.. but they didn't chase me out of the house.

sinboi

What a silly idiot I am! ...after reading the comments here and had a good nite sleep last night, I realise that the problem lies with me and my childish, unrealistic expectations..

I have expected too much and too fast. I have unrealistic expectations.

I am feeling better now. Thank you all for the good advice you have given me.

Answers to your queries :

I am 16 y.o. DA'd 3 months ago.

Deegee, if you mean immediate family, the answer is no. I am the only son in the family. All my other relatives are non-jws. They do not know I am no longer a jw and that my dad and mom are shunning me. My granny is very opposed to this religion. She loves me a lot. I cannot let her know my family is shunning me. It will cause a lot of trouble to my parents.

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I have enjoyed the shunning in the past. But why not now?

by sinboi in

i am prepared for shunning when i send in my da letter.

my dad was furious when he comes back from overseas and find out that i have da myself.

yes, i do regret not talking to him first before i da...i also know that my mom is crying in her room.. but they didn't chase me out of the house.

sinboi

I am prepared for shunning when I send in my DA letter. My dad was furious when he comes back from overseas and find out that I have DA myself. Yes, I do regret not talking to him first before I DA...I also know that my mom is crying in her room.

But they didn't chase me out of the house. My mom still cook my share. But we no longer eat together. I still got my allowance. They did not talk to me. In fact, they avoided meeting me. I too, avoided them. Soon, I enjoyed it. Nobody is controlling me anymore. I have gained my freedom!

Last saturday morning, I found a note on the table from my mom : "You are getting from bad to worse! No allowance for the weekend." I don't feel anything..no allowance for the weekend?..no problem...I can borrow from friends...

Everything changed when I received a text msg from my dad in the late evening..."I am going overseas for 3 weeks. Take care of your mom."

I was so happy when I read that...they still consider me a part of the family?

I remember my mom will have a meeting on sat's evening. I rush home, shower and waited for her to leave for the meeting. When she finally come out from her room, I said to her : "Mom, dad is overseas. Do you want me to walk you to the bus-stop?" It jolted me out of my dream to be part of the family when she shouted: "You are no longer a jw. Get lost!"

I went drinking beer, got drunk and don't know how I got back home and at what time...I checked with my friends later...they say it left at about 9:15pm. So I presumed I was back home b4 my mom...she didn't know I have been out drinking...

Monday morning...I need to go school. My allowances were on the table with a note :"Don't let me catch you smoking again!"

On the way to school, I was thinking..."She must be angry because she saw me smoke.If I am a good boy to her...."

I immediately went back home after school..She was not at home..I remember the wash basin is a little bit choked. It took me quite a while to get some hairs out that is causing the choke. By the time I got it cleared, my pants was wet and dirty and the floor too. I was cleaning up the floor when she returns...

She came into the kitchen and wanted to see what I was doing as the kitchen was wet and dirty..I said : "Mom, I have just cleared the choke!" She tested it and said to me :"I thought I have to wait for your dad to come back. Go and shower! Also put your dirty pants in the washing machine." She then clean up the floor herself.

I have been washing my own clothes after I DA. This is the first time she talk to me! No doubt the tone of voice is unfriendly but it's ok to me. I've got my reward! Later, I notice a newly ironed school pants on the table....

That started my dream of becoming a part of the family again...

Tuesday come and go...she didn't talk to me...in fact since monday's incident, I did not see her face.

Today Wednesday...I have an exam paper...it was over in 90 mins. We can go home after the exam...I'm afraid to come home...but no one is free to accompany me today...I walked aimless on the streets for quite a while...now back at home...my mom is at home in her room..I in my room...crying...does anyone care whether I am alive or dead????

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Shunned jpg Cartoon

by oppostate in

saw this on instagram tagged with #ttatt.

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sinboi

I was shunned by my family after I left the org 3 mths ago. I always thought that if I have not got baptised a year ago, I would not be shunned.

Only a few days ago did I realised this is not the case. JWs also shun their unbaptised children when they leave.

ISIS are radical muslims.

JWs are radical christians!