(((((Karen)))))) I want to hug you too!
I can totally relate. My parents do the same, and my mother has popped into my life occasionally just to reopen the wound to remind me about that our relationship is "dead". It is a pain that really doesn't ever go away......my only savior was to take control of what I can and that is not to allow her in any more. No expectations, no disappointments. But there are days when it still gets me down. So many times I wish that I had a mother who loved me unconditionally.