Posts by jdash

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Belief in God

by jdash in

when did you guys start to doubt your faith in god?'.

what made you doubt your faith in god?.

thanks !.

jdash

When did you guys start to doubt your faith in God?'

What made you doubt your faith in God?

Thanks !

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Too restricting + more

by jdash in

good news or bad news first?

i'll do bad.. my grandmother is becoming more and more strict as i turn closer to 18, which is in 3 months.

i ask for the most simplest thing and it's like "let me think about it" i don't wanna seem as a complainer to you guys but i just want to be normal.

I mean I used to watch her kids 24/7 before school started but it got annoying fast. Let's say I prefer the 3 year old over the 6 month old. I can discipline the 3 year old but the baby, you can't do nothing about it, she is always crying for no reason, and I don't know what's wrong. I mean, once again, this situation possibly could happen so i'm not trying to complain.

But let's say I do something in a few weeks or so that I know is outside my grandmothers boundaries; lets say , hanging out with some "worldly" friends , how should I go carrying it on? I'm tried of being controlled on everything I do. It's like fuck it, you only live once.

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Too restricting + more

by jdash in

good news or bad news first?

i'll do bad.. my grandmother is becoming more and more strict as i turn closer to 18, which is in 3 months.

i ask for the most simplest thing and it's like "let me think about it" i don't wanna seem as a complainer to you guys but i just want to be normal.

jdash

Thanks guys!

@the girl next door : I want to move out once I turn 18 but I don't know where to go. I may go live with my sister , but either of us have cars and she has 2 kids (3yr old & 6 month old). I wouldn't mind. I wish my brother wasn't a junkie but he is living with my other family members who I detest. We'll see.

@giordano : I've been thinking that. Like, hell what do i have to lose? She goes to the sister school to mines. I met her on social media. You got me thinking now.

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Too restricting + more

by jdash in

good news or bad news first?

i'll do bad.. my grandmother is becoming more and more strict as i turn closer to 18, which is in 3 months.

i ask for the most simplest thing and it's like "let me think about it" i don't wanna seem as a complainer to you guys but i just want to be normal.

jdash

Good news or bad news first? I'll do bad.

My grandmother is becoming more and more strict as I turn closer to 18, which is in 3 months. I ask for the most simplest thing and it's like "let me think about it" I don't wanna seem as a complainer to you guys but I just want to be normal. I see my friends going to every football game, hanging out, and i'm just over here bored. I currently work , so she takes literally half of my paycheck, not for bills or anything, when she knows i'm going to college, so paying for college will be a pain in the ass. It makes me debate whether I actually wanna stay till I graduate from highschool. Cause I feel once I turn 18, i'm doing stuff she forbids, you could say. I kinda got sad last night because there is this girl that I have been talking to, and she wants me to do things with her & whatnot, but I can't so I make up excuses. And I guess you could say i'm pretty good looking, lmao . If you want my instagram, feel free to pm me.

Some good news is that I got accepted into a college with a 10k scholarship. It's my backup college if I don't get accepted into my main college. My grandmother keeps trying to change my mind on going to college. She says stuff like "you know i'll miss you right" "you are going to crash & burn and come back to jehovah" "you will come back to jehovah" like she knows i will fail. And she's always trying to doubt me and saying my path isn't clear.

Overall i'm happy, except that I can't be "normal". Thanks guys for being here for me to vent to and talk to!

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My Convention Experience and Thoughts !

by jdash in

so during the week of july 6-8th i went to the convention.

i had a funny experience.. to start off, i'm usually with my close friends that i know and who basically have the same mindset as i do.

but during saturday, during lunch, me and my buddies were walking outside and we noticed someone was singing real loud and kinda in a deep voice.

jdash

So during the week of July 6-8th I went to the convention. I had a funny experience.

To start off, I'm usually with my close friends that I know and who basically have the same mindset as I do. But during Saturday, during lunch, me and my buddies were walking outside and we noticed someone was singing real loud and kinda in a deep voice. So we made our way around to the sound and noticed it was a big dude. We were laughing and whatnot and joking. We started to record it and put it on snapchat. Then he started moving and some attendants started to try to talk to him but he didn't bother, he still continued singing. I think that gave him more attention and he kept doing it. After lunch I saw him in the convention area, but he was quiet. He looked like he didn't care about the convention and wanted to interrupt it, although he never did anything within the arena.

Then on Sunday, we did the same thing. This time he was wearing a blue bandana, so we were making jokes that he was a "crip" and whatnot. Honestly, he was minding his business and was just walking outside. Some attendants were following him and he noticed that. I guess they didn't want anything wild to happen. Once again, they started talking to him and it seemed as he got irritated. He started getting loud and the attendants were like circling him. I think all that attention he was receiving helped him because he wouldn't stop. At this point, me and my buddies were literally laughing out loud. Everybody was staring at him. I heard someone say he was an ex witness. He put the middle fingers up at the attendants. Then he went inside with the attendants and that was the end of that. My buddies and I enjoyed it and didn't care, because we didn't want to be there in the first place.

I don't know if that was planned by anyone here but if it was thank you for making me a laugh.

Anyways, I know I had said I was going to leave at 18, but I think I'm not going to. I'm going leave after I graduate high school. I'll be going to college anyways. Senior year starts in like 2 weeks and I'm ecstatic about it.

Everyone asks me about what is my next goal within the religion, and I, throw away my pride, and say "I probably be a regular pioneer." I only tell certain people what is my next move after high school.

I think that is it. I know I haven't been active and that is because I am usually playing fortnite, 2k, or other games with my buddies.

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Famous last words spoken by every jdub at one time or another

by nowwhat? in

"oh i'm not going to worry about it, armageddon will be here by then!".

-including me.

jdash

"Keep on the watch!" "Don't give up!"

When at the door "No collection plate is passed"

"We will be in the new system by then"

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My Personal Atheist Manifesto?

by dubstepped in

so, i have a guy that is emailing me after listening to my podcast series "this jw life" about my life story before, during, and after being a jw.

this guy happens to be an elder and pioneer serving where the need is greater.

i love this guy.

jdash

Could I get the podcast link? Thanks!

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Just some thoughts

by jdash in

i find it funny.

pretty sure someone who is anointed hasn't been disfellowshipped that many times or probably not even once.

i honestly don't care.

jdash

Thanks Giordano. I'm trying my best.

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Just some thoughts

by jdash in

i find it funny.

pretty sure someone who is anointed hasn't been disfellowshipped that many times or probably not even once.

i honestly don't care.

jdash

As the memorial season winds down, lmao, just want to post some of the thoughts going through my head.

So my father who has been disfellowshipped at least 5 times thinks he is part of the anointed and has been partaking of the emblems for a few years now. I find it funny. Pretty sure someone who is anointed hasn't been disfellowshipped that many times or probably not even once. I honestly don't care.

Also, my uncle is having hip replacement surgery soon, and he went to a seminar on it, in which, they teach him what and what not to do after the surgery. He told us that they are giving him a pillow/cushion to put between his legs. I wonder what the organization thinks of that, lmao.

Oh yeah, school is going good so far. Almost finished with my junior year and grades are looking good.

My other uncle just got released from prison like 2 weeks ago, after 14 years, so that's bittersweet.

And that's all so far.

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Thanks

by Akid48 in

hey its me if any one remembers me,i just wanted to post saying that ive been doing well.right now im just trying to live life and have some fun while im still a kid.it still sucks to have to go to meetings etc.. like the title i wanted to say thanks for the people that helped me when i was posting a lot.i might post some times but not as much as i used to..

jdash

Hey, even though I never personally gave you help, I want to say to keep strong and take care of yourself. I'm only 17, so I honestly know what you are going through. I still currently attend meetings and baptized but I no longer participate in them. It's a long road but keep on! You are doing a great thing by at 13 'waking up' and realizing that this is a cult and whatnot. If you ever need someone to talk to you can send me a message and I will get back to you. Don't put your time and energy into this so called "truth."