... and by the way - love your house! I've always wanted one just like it!
Feeling bitter this morning. That's "bitter" not "better" I was just thinking about what tipped me over the edge, what woke me up. I had my husband and an intake worker at the counselling centre ask me that and I didn't have a handy answer. Now I remember what it was - we were soon going to have to go around proclaiming the above noted message. Now I always hated service! But "You and everyone you love and everyone in the whole world (except for us wonderful righteous JW's who are going to survive and live on a paradise earth) are shortly going to die a horrible terrible terrifying painful death at the hands of Jehovah God and be dead forever more. See, like in this picture! And you can't do anything about it now. Too bad, so sad!" How could anyone in their right mind think that was an okay thing to do?
If a JW comes to you and tells you that, what will be your reply?
I think it's sad that my husband believes that, and thinks that people deserve to be killed that way because they didn't listen. No, "sad" isn't the word, "disgusting" is closer. And "frightening". He'll say: "Jehovah has the right to do anything he pleases. Who are you to question God?" And he has grown children and grandchildren. I know you're supposed to respect people's beliefs, but really?! No, I can't respect that!
Oops, this came around to my marriage again didn't it? I don't believe that it's okay to kill for people to kill wild animals if they eat the meat, when we can just go to the nearest grocery store and buy meat. My husband doesn't agree, he likes to hunt. I don't like or respect that about him. I simply don't. Now we have different religious beliefs and I don't respect his beliefs - I don't just disagree with his beliefs, I don't respect him for having them. He's right when he says I sound disdainful when we talk about the brothers and the governing body and the beliefs.
If anyone has managed to follow my meanderings thus far, I DO have a question if you care to comment - how do those of you who have partners who are "in" do it? Those who have seen absolutely no sign, no hope that their partners will ever change their ideas? And you can't talk about it or reason with them on it - they just don't want to hear it! He said at the beginning of all this, during one of our first arguments, that he thought I'd decide I didn't want to be married to a JW. I don't know, maybe he's right, or maybe it's just the KIND of JW he is!
So there you have it!
