@ Jw on the loose. Eventually I am moving and fading away. It's going to be crazy when they figured out I deleted them all, if I see them at the hall. I am thinking if I blocked them, then it will look like I got rid of my facebook. However eventually I will muster up courage and just say yeah I deleted you so what.
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When you might be discovered?
by confused3426 ini am still in my crossroads, and going to some meetings at times.
i have joined facebook ex jw support groups.
on friday one of my friends from my hall, texts me saying he saw a recommendation to join a group, and sees me listed as a member.
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When you might be discovered?
by confused3426 ini am still in my crossroads, and going to some meetings at times.
i have joined facebook ex jw support groups.
on friday one of my friends from my hall, texts me saying he saw a recommendation to join a group, and sees me listed as a member.
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I am still in my crossroads, and going to some meetings at times. I have joined facebook ex jw support groups. On Friday one of my friends from my hall, texts me saying he saw a recommendation to join a group, and sees me listed as a member. He asked if I was ok? I got nervous and scared he might snitch on me. So I lied and said my facebook was hacked. I know I am punk for not standing up for myself. I just can't have the elders force me to talk to them, when I am still gathering my research together etc. Plus I am going to leave when I want to leave, and not when they bully me to leave. I did delete all my jw friends today on facebook and blocked them. It feels kinda of good, but I am sure they will notice I unfriended them.
Just wondering if anyone has been in this same situation?
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ARC meaning
by confused3426 insorry if this sounds stupid, what's the meaning of the word arc i see so many use?
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ARC meaning
by confused3426 insorry if this sounds stupid, what's the meaning of the word arc i see so many use?
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Sorry if this sounds stupid, what's the meaning of the word ARC I see so many use?
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The start of a rough patch ahead...
by confused3426 inlast night i told my mom my true feelings on the organization and what i've learned so far.
it all started from a conversation, we need to go visit the new headquarters.
my mom has been studying and just recently became an unbaptized publisher in the spanish cong.
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@IloveTTATT2 I was looking for Spanish websites. Yes this is what I need. I have to keep it cool for now, and pretend to keep the peace with her for now. I will save these sites as my favorite, and share with my mom in the future.
@crazyguy nope I def don't want to be the sister who never married, never had kids and now lives alone in the nursing home. NO NO
I will soon start living my life!
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The start of a rough patch ahead...
by confused3426 inlast night i told my mom my true feelings on the organization and what i've learned so far.
it all started from a conversation, we need to go visit the new headquarters.
my mom has been studying and just recently became an unbaptized publisher in the spanish cong.
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@ Cadellin, I like your idea, just to slowly fade away. I feel that if I stop going overnight, then boom everyone will come after me and try to persuade me to stay. I am a woman in my 30's so I can move out. Right now I was at home for financial reasons, and to help my parents out financially. I do have plans for moving out in the near future. @toesup I told my mom the same thing that if my friends and family truly love me, just b/c I no longer think like them, doesn't mean they need to stop being in my life. They can stay in the organization. I just don't want to be part of it, after researching the many things you mentioned. I just feel like I discovered the Wizard was not real. My mind is blown away lately!! Like what is true and not true anymore.
@tor1500 that's what I plan on doing, is to do more for my mom and dad at home. Do things as a family, so she doesn't think omg she's gone off the deep end. I told her this morning that I love her so much, and that my love for her doesn't change. We can still be close as before. I know my Latino family and boy they can easily convince everyone to turn on someone in a minute. They think they mean well, but they don't. So I rather not have them in my business with my relationship with my mom. I am an only child, and hopefully my mom sees the need for me in her life and not just to push me away b/c I stop believing in WT.
@never a jw. You think Latinos do that, but my witness family follows the WT rules. When I was df years ago, I was shunned for 7 years from my cousins, aunt. They would be in the same room as me, and not acknowledge my presence. I see how they treat my other cousin who is df. I just don't want to experience that again.
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The start of a rough patch ahead...
by confused3426 inlast night i told my mom my true feelings on the organization and what i've learned so far.
it all started from a conversation, we need to go visit the new headquarters.
my mom has been studying and just recently became an unbaptized publisher in the spanish cong.
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Last night I told my mom my true feelings on the organization and what I've learned so far. It all started from a conversation, we need to go visit the new headquarters. My mom has been studying and just recently became an unbaptized publisher in the Spanish Cong. Currently I was going to the English cong. I live with my mom, and have tried to keep the peace despite my many doubts about the religion now. However I have had enough of trying to pretend, so I told her what I thought. Of course my mom broke down crying, saying that I've crushed her heart. How can I turn my back on Jehovah. That she started studying with witnesses b/c of me. I explained to my mom my feelings, what I've discovered. She of course told me I am weak in my faith, and have allowed Satan to corrupt my thinking. That if I stop serving Jehovah my life will be terrible etc. She finally clams down after crying forever. This just broke my heart to see that I've heart my mom's feelings. I assure her that I love her, and that I still love God, Jesus, and still believe in the Bible. I just don't believe in many things of WT. She reminds me of how much I will loose with my witness family, witness friends. I told her I am ready to face it, but honestly I am scared. I told her not to tell my die hard JW family my doubts or else they will think I've lost my mind and possibly report me. I am sure there's many who experience this. Do you just keep peace in your house, and pretend for a while, or do you finally have enough and say forget it??
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Confused
by confused3426 ini am a newbie, and yes current jw.
i have been dealing with a lot confusion for months now.
i guess it started last year when i found myself losing my zeal, desire for spiritual things.
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@cha ching @smiddy @the searcher and everyone else, thank you for welcoming me in, and giving me a lot helpful information to look up. It's been a bit overwhelming at times these last few weeks, to see what I've learned is not true, and just makes me sad that I believed so much for years. I will take it day by day, and do my research see with my own eyes what the Bible says and not the Bible I used for the meetings. I just need to dig deeper into scriptures.
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by confused3426 ini am a newbie, and yes current jw.
i have been dealing with a lot confusion for months now.
i guess it started last year when i found myself losing my zeal, desire for spiritual things.
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@sanchy yes I'm still going but been MIA these last few weeks @corrputgirl hey chica glad I been talking to you. Everyone thanks for the kind words and I definitely will be asking a lot questions and will look up the info anyone wishes to share with me.
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by confused3426 ini am a newbie, and yes current jw.
i have been dealing with a lot confusion for months now.
i guess it started last year when i found myself losing my zeal, desire for spiritual things.
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Hello all. I am a newbie, and yes current JW. I have been dealing with a lot confusion for months now. I guess it started last year when I found myself losing my zeal, desire for spiritual things. A bit background on me. I am in my mid 30's. I was married young for 7 years to a former JW. He disassociated himself, by writing a letter. This broke my heart, and eventually our marriage was broken, we got divorced. In that time period, I lost all hope in Jehovah and got involved in an immoral lifestyle according to JW standards. I was df, and was out for about 7 years. I eventually came back, b/c I missed my family and some good friends I made. I thought I was happier serving Jehovah, years prior since I was once a pioneer, married to a servant living a so called great life. I came back thinking maybe things could be different, and I do love Jehovah so I needed to come back. I have been back now 3 years, and this past year I find myself no longer interested in meetings, esp service. I find myself not belonging anymore, since most of my old friends are still married and in the truth. I was single for a little while and hoping to meet a great brother. But as we know the lack of brothers is slim!! I started dating a wordly man and I am very happy. He has opened my eyes up to think outside of the organization. He believes in the Bible, and has pointed out things that I now see are false from what I've learned. I got even more curious and found this website, and started chatting with a former sister on a social media site. I tell my boyfriend, I am not making any major choice right now, but I need to know the truth. I'm just confused on what I thought was true bible teachings, and to be told everything I learned could be a lie is mind blowing to me!! I am sure there's many like me. I will continue to research the answers in different bible translations, and get to the bottom of what I really want. I love Jehovah and want to do what's right in his eyes, but I am just tired of man made rules, regulations. I am at that point, that I just want to live my life.
Sorry if this is too long.