I'm not at the point of an atheist but for the God I still believe in, I believe he is deliberately screwing with mankind. I also am coming to grips that this is the only life we have to live.
This quote from Ricky Gervais has been giving me comfort:
"It's a strange myth that atheists have nothing to live for. It's the opposite. We have nothing to die for. We have EVERYTHING to live for."
I've been trying to live each day in a way that would make my future self proud. Did I do something kind for someone else? Even a complete stranger? Was I honest? Was I happy today? What can I do to be happy tomorrow?
Knowing that I am living "the real life" now is liberating in that I no longer feel like I have the ability to put off things I want to do for myself. I will not have time to do those things in paradise.