Hello Phoebe
First of welcome to the site. I'm sorry to read about the terrible experiences you and your husband have endured. However, many, many people on this site and others like it have endured the same. The forum users have posted excellent advice and all I can say is apply as much of it as is necessary to get you through.
I too have been to see a counsellor to assist and guide me through my muddled thinking. My only regret is that I did not do it years ago. I could have saved myself much anguish. Let me just state that there is no shame in seeking professional help. Its interesting that Elders in your congregation cautioned you against seeing a counsellor, and if you did, not to mention JW's at all. Very interesting indeed!
Anyway, forgive my ramblings. This is an excellent website and there are many, many people here who are willing to offer assistance and encouragement in one form or another.
Best wishes to you and your husband.