have been in the austin area for a little over a week in the midst of trying to start over.
i was df'd recently after being in the truth my entire life.
everyone has abandoned me, and i am lost out here.
Update: I am now at my SIL's, have a job, finishing projects my brother could not finish before he died, and I'm safe and getting back on my feet. I will post more in time. Meanwhile, if you anyone has any questions, feel free to message me or post them here. I will try and respond asap. hugs.
C, I'd toss your lying ass under the bus, but the smell of squashed bullshit is more than most people can handle. Do not contact me again here or any other way. I'm not kidding.
have been in the austin area for a little over a week in the midst of trying to start over.
i was df'd recently after being in the truth my entire life.
everyone has abandoned me, and i am lost out here.
How do you remain in a home you built for people who do not want you there? How do you do that? Tell me, please, how do you force your will upon another human being and expect to reside in any kind of peace or without causing them to disregard you even more than they already do? So many say go back and assert your rights, but they have not yet answered those questions or offered any strategy for doing so without doing more damage to the children. Of course, I want to go home. Of course I want to put my foot down and assert MY rights. Easier said than done.
have been in the austin area for a little over a week in the midst of trying to start over.
i was df'd recently after being in the truth my entire life.
everyone has abandoned me, and i am lost out here.
I appreciate you. Hopefully, in the morning I can find a way to get to my sil's place without any further frustration. once there, I will be OK.
have been in the austin area for a little over a week in the midst of trying to start over.
i was df'd recently after being in the truth my entire life.
everyone has abandoned me, and i am lost out here.
oh, and C and W, go hump yourselves lol you suck.
have been in the austin area for a little over a week in the midst of trying to start over.
i was df'd recently after being in the truth my entire life.
everyone has abandoned me, and i am lost out here.
thanks, talespin. it is a bit late to take advantage of your suggestion. I just have to ride this night out at the Denny's where I have made friends with the waitress. My ID was stolen, so I cannot even get a bus ticket, which I have money for, but without ID, I am stuck. I cannot even get a motel, which I have money for . . . this so sucks, lol. But I am getting use to it. Denny's is cool. Coffee refills all night, a waitress with heavy makeup to cover her acne, to cause more acne, lol, and free wifi so I can read and post on this board, lol. the light of day will bring a solution. I can bare it. I just need someone to take my money, buy me a bus ticket with it, and I will be on my way to a fresh new start.
have been in the austin area for a little over a week in the midst of trying to start over.
i was df'd recently after being in the truth my entire life.
everyone has abandoned me, and i am lost out here.
I did not come to this board for a handout, or for free anything. I came to this board for the support and encouragement it touted as its purpose.
again, I did not come to this board for a handout, or for free anything. I came to this board for the support and encouragement it touted as its purpose.
One very fine lady insisted I take some money to help me through a couple of days and I accepted gratefully.
Another regular poster on this board offered me a place to stay, my own room with TV and internet. They offered to send me money. They expressed concern and said that if I ever make it to their town, to let them know and I could stay with them. Without knowing it, I did make to their town, and did not realize it til after the fact as I read through past posts and pm's. I called and asked if i could stay but just for a day or two until I could make arrangement to get to my sisterinlaw's, to which they flat out refused me. They had formerly spoke of their religious convicitions and tithing, and blah-blahbidy-blah blah, devout Chrisitians no doubt, but when it came to keeping their word, acting on their Christian faith, they backpedaled, made excuses, and turned me away into the cold blackened night like sad, pathetic, hypocritical, weak-ass whatevers.
Thanks to those who offered the encouragement this board touted. Bravo. Thanks for not offereing false hope and empty promises. Thanks for being practicle and real.
To those who offered false hope, empty promises, and offers I did not ask for only to make excuses for not following through, shame on you. I never asked you for shit, and it must've made you feel good about yourself to make such generous offers right up until I said yes to one of them. Then you ignored me. Then you made excuses. Then you turned me down flat for no valid reason whatsoever. you did not learn the lessons the WTBTS should have taught you about how NOT to act in Jesus name. You suck, and again, shame on you. I did not ask you for what you offered me. I only took you up on your offer after the fact, then you showed your true self. Empty words. Empty hearts. Empty pretentious people. Justify it all you want, but you hurt me more this night than you can imagine.
have been in the austin area for a little over a week in the midst of trying to start over.
i was df'd recently after being in the truth my entire life.
everyone has abandoned me, and i am lost out here.
I have talked to my kids recently, and they haven't much care for their father at present. they feel I have abandoned Jehovah and they do not want to talk to me or see until I come back to Jehovah, but the catch is that they have been told there very little hope for an apostate, so they have given me up for dead. They are torn, and it is hard for me to deal with their pain and confusion, the poison they are being fed about me, and I wish I could convince them it is all a lie without messing up their heads anymore than they already are. I reassured them that I was not a bad apostate, but that their mother and the elders misunderstand me and are full of fear to hear something contrary to what they have been taught by the WTBTS. I am not sure whether they took any comfort in those words, but I am hoping I got in just a bit.
have been in the austin area for a little over a week in the midst of trying to start over.
i was df'd recently after being in the truth my entire life.
everyone has abandoned me, and i am lost out here.
I talked to my sister in law, I told her what I could without overwhelming her, and she welcomed me to come and visit. Meanwhile, I have made it to Dallas and need a place to stay for a couple nights while I make arrangements to get to her home in another state. If anyone can help, I would appreciate it. I don't want a handout. I just need a break and a safe place to stay for a day or two while I make arrangements to get to her.
My brother died recently, and we were not close since I was a JW and he had long ago went his own way after disfellowshipment. I sort of treated him like crap all these years, so my sister in law is being extremely gracious and loving considering. It is amazing how the only people willing to show love are worldly people and apostates. I feel so shitty when I think about all those years of wasted time holding my brother at arms-length because he was disfellowshipped. I have some explaning and some amends to make to his widow, with egg on my face, ashamed, humbled, and quite ready to hear about how my brother suffered emotionally and mentally for the shunning he experienced. I deserve to bare it. i deserved take whatever rebuke she might have, in the end, for me.
What a fucked up journey this has been. Sorry for the language, but it feels good to effing cuss a bit. lol
have been in the austin area for a little over a week in the midst of trying to start over.
i was df'd recently after being in the truth my entire life.
everyone has abandoned me, and i am lost out here.
Update: I found a little handyman work for the last few weeks and made a little money, but was basically working for room and board. I am back to square one again, and will be back on the streets tomorrow. There was an offer to help me but the person who made the offer stopped responding to my messages and I don't know what that means, and the help never manifested. I can't say what all I have been through in these last weeks, but it has been mostly difficult and trying. I don't know what to do except maybe try and get to my sisterinlaw's place, but I am not sure she will take me in. we shall see.
have been in the austin area for a little over a week in the midst of trying to start over.
i was df'd recently after being in the truth my entire life.
everyone has abandoned me, and i am lost out here.
A homeless shelter is where I had my wallet and ID stolen my first week here. An acquaintence who is also trying to find me some work, is letting me use his address to get a new ID and DL. It takes a couple weeks to receive them.
I have been resourceful as I can be. I shower daily at a bicycle shop in town that offers that kind of amenity for $1. CVS has 10 for $10 items which include tuna, salmon, nuts, trailmix, etc.. problem is that I ran out of dollars a couple days ago, and labor day weekend wasn't the best time to go soliciting for window cleaning jobs. It is very warm at night, so sleeping outdoors is not bad, and I have found two spots where I can sleep a little bit without drawing attention to myself or disturbing or alarming others. I bought a bicycle off of craigslist when i first arrived and it serves as transportation, and is adequate to carry my equipment around. There is a program called fishes and loaves that sends a truck to various parts of town and gives out free meals no questions asked, but I can't always make it on time since I am out hustling for jobs. the last two days have been murder, though.
