the warrior king song was also one of them and fealessly go. i guess because of the beat.
I couldnt sing worth a DAMN still cant
crystlew123
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Those Wonderful Kingdom Songs
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Those Wonderful Kingdom Songs
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crystlew123
brown book. song 114. we are jehovahs witnesses.
Oddly enough. right> I can still remember the chourus to this day. Yikes. i used to sing this song 24/7 when i was little. I have No earthly idea why.
There were a coupl eothers but i cant remember them
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Atheist Book of Bible Stories
by crystlew123 inok so i dl'd this book.
and i immediatly began reading it.
i am about 50 pdf pages into it.
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feel kinda wierd that my mind just got blown like this.
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Atheist Book of Bible Stories
by crystlew123 inok so i dl'd this book.
and i immediatly began reading it.
i am about 50 pdf pages into it.
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ok so I DL'd this book. and I immediatly began reading it. I am about 50 PDF pages into it. Oddly enough it is making so much sense. And I learne something I didnt even know. Two different people are credited with killing goliath! holy shit. Wtf? I even looked it up just to double check. In the NWT (just because I have it close by) It totally blew my mind. Along with the math and such on many different topics. AS A JW most people dont even THINK about those kinds of things, they just take it at face value.
And the fact that multiple people died MANY times on seperate accounts and by different hands. like the egyptian horses. WOW!
This is pretty amazing.
Im not saying im a atheist. But Ive always had suspicions that the bible was just another story told by man and had nothing to do with god. this just deepens the theory. Still a lot of reading and studying to do but it really makes sense. Again, my eyes have been oopened.
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My story. not that interesting but, I want to tell it.
by crystlew123 inhi my name is crystle.
( i dont care if my congregation finds out what i am posting.
i havent been "in" for ten years and i have already told severl members what i think and where they can shove it...:/) i am 27 years old, and a single mother of a wonderful 6 year old.
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thank you blacksheep. Im going to DL it and read it soon. maybe to my son lol
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My story. not that interesting but, I want to tell it.
by crystlew123 inhi my name is crystle.
( i dont care if my congregation finds out what i am posting.
i havent been "in" for ten years and i have already told severl members what i think and where they can shove it...:/) i am 27 years old, and a single mother of a wonderful 6 year old.
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Grandma
Tried to open the link to abobs but it said it was expired or something!
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do you remember the Last assembly you attended?
by crystlew123 ini dont remember the date.
or the year or if it was a district or circuit.
what i do remember is that we rode up with a car full of other female witnesses.
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I dont remember the date. Or the year or if it was a District or Circuit. What I do remember is that we rode up with a car full of other female witnesses. My dad was unable to attend for some reason. I think he had just had surgery. In anycase... There are like six of us in the van. I REALLY didnt want to go. REALLY REALLY REALLY. I begged. I bribed. I did everything I could not to go- even saying I had to stay home to help dad out. I was 15? In anycase. I made some remark and got instnt reproof from all the sisters in the car. So I did what every teenager does and sank into the back of the van, pulled my headphones on and disappeared.
The next day AT the assembly. I roamed around. I walked my a@@ off. But I had brought a blanket and a pillow INSIDE with me. Carried it to my seat. I was also a avid writer at the time (all stories NO JW should ever read let alone write. Vampires, ghosts, sex, pornographic stuff lol) I wrote until my arm fell off, not hearing a single word that was said. Then I pulled my headphones from my bag, wrapped up in my blanket, popped my pillow under my head and nodded off wit the walkman on LOUD. I know the sisters and brothers around us could hear it but nothing was said. Whats even better was that it was ANDREW WK, and the one song on there that I played and replayed over and over was I WANT SEX. He screams it about 500 times during the song. I fell asleep. SLept through damn near the entire day.
Needless to say Mom was NOT impresssed. But she never stopped it either. I think she had given up at that point. But then my mom was never confrontational either. I think she probably just sighed and cried to the other sisters....seeing as how she did leave the room that night to go to the other sisters room for several hours...I wasnt invited....ha.
I know I did the same thing the next day too. Wrote pages up on pages up on pages of story, all the while my walk- man screaming I WANT SEX into my teenage ears.
The ride home was....interesting to say the least. I was pretty much avoided- even in the small cramped van, other than a lecture by the other sisters when my mom wasnt around about how I was hurting my mom, and Jehovah of course. I just shrugged, glared at them and said "I didnt want to come to this crap anyway." then something about bringing up children in the lords way or some other crap like that from them. I think i basically just turned my music up higher and dove into my writing.
Oh, one more memory. Since dad was an elder he gave talks at other congregations frequently. I remember being an avid writer then too. I remember more than one brother (and sister) complimenting me on my "note-taking". I just smiled and nodded. My dad always gave me this look of dont you dare say anything , dont you dare- he knew what i was doing, but couldnt stop it. I would take about a page of notes ont he actual talk just to convinve him I was doing what I was supposed to then I would turn the page and hop on off.About the only way I could STAND to be at the meetings and not die from boredom or from laughing my a@@ off at the rediculousness of it all.
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Jehovah's Witnesses cease to exist before the year 2000
by rory-ks inseptember 1st, 2012, can be marked down in the theocratic calendar as the day the watchtower bible and tract society marched shamelessly into the 21st century.
on that day, jw.org, official website of jehovah's witnesses, went live, and with one strike the organisation put a match to its past.. .
seek out the society's online library, its searchable database of publications, and you will soon see that it has only made available literature published since the year 2000. inclusion of the generic work, insight on the scriptures, is of no consequence.
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well at least my parents would be for ced to have the internet in thier house again....but then I would have to teach them how to use the internet an computer. and probably they would try to not get a new compuier but use mine.....sigh.....Its a win/lose situation
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Yes I have, lol. I thought it was funny. I had all sorts of acronyms (SP?) for my record. Elders often asked me what they meant. SOme I couldnt say without getting in trouble for. (I was only 13) I cant remeber them all now but i know turnin them in and watching the elders face every week was fun. .....to name a few, of course he would eventually figure them out (esp when we switched to a younger elder for time keeping.....oops)
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My story. not that interesting but, I want to tell it.
by crystlew123 inhi my name is crystle.
( i dont care if my congregation finds out what i am posting.
i havent been "in" for ten years and i have already told severl members what i think and where they can shove it...:/) i am 27 years old, and a single mother of a wonderful 6 year old.
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Thank all of you for your support and comments, (today my A works...im at work lol... Sitting on the reception desk with nothing better to do than run the internet!!!) I have thought about counseling- in fact went ot a therapist twice but never got past the first session (where they basicaly just figure out what you have done before etc...) I suffered really bad depression for several years and once called my mom in the middle of the night telling her i was going to take a bottleof tylonal pm and drink a bottle of tequila. yeah, my cousin who worked at behavioral health was over in like ten minutes and she lived 45 minutes away.
Basically I am on medication to control the depression, and yes its helping. Some nights I lay in bed and wonder if I can make it. But my little boy is the only reason I am still alive. ( hes also the reason I went back to school. Gotta give him everything I didnt have growing up) What would he do without me. he would grow up Jw is what would happen. I cant let that happen. His father would lose his rights and end up having no say in what happened to him (due to his situation for thelast ten years).
I am the youngest of 8 children my father had and the only one my mother had. ( ( have step bro's and sisters") They are all grown and never had to endure the JW life because my dad and mom didnt become JW until about a yearbefore I was born. My grandfather was a babtist preacher (back in 1920's on thru till he died) He told my dad he was abusing me. That the faith he had chosen was wrong and he shouldnt be raising a child in it. Of course my dad jus started discussing the bible with him, trying to indoctrinate him. Ha! that worked out well. LEts just say they argued more than studied. Lol. My other family members didnt agree either and when they herard I had left where surprised but happy and supportive.
I commited a great sin the other day .... I thought about going back. (GASP!) But then I popped online and found this forum again, saving me. I was lonely. Scared. Having douibts. Maybe Just maybe I could live the life. Skirt around the edges. Would my life be easier? Would being in Jehovahs organization make things better? I had to scour my brian, thinking of the reasons I had left, of the basic doctrines of the faith before I decided no, it wouldnt. I would hate myself. and I think my son would hate me too. He loves His birthday, and christmas....and holloween)
I had his birthday partty at my parents house this year- with thier permission. Of course, they were going out for the afternoon, date night I guess, going to see some fellow sisters and brothers. I had six kids , my ex his girlfriend and one of the kids parents.
I posted on FB that the party was at my house. the time. even that my parents were going out for the afternoon so it was PARTY TIME!Etc about a month before-hand. Guess what happened?
A JW found out the party was at the house. MY DAD AND MOM got called to a MEETING to find out why they were having a birthday party at thier house. I got called to the table for a family meeting and the situation explained to me. (yes i was still alowed to have a party at the house since my dad is big on promises) I asked who had "ratted" me out and why it was even thier business. (I suspect it was the next door neighbor who is also JW) My parents refused to tell me who it was. I said dont I have the right to face the accuser?
In any case becauseI have a few pictures of my son on facebook (security settings limit viewing to my family and his dads family) I also got chewed out.
Im still trying to figure out how any JW knew I was having said party because Ia m not friends with any JW on facebook. ALthough my aunt is, but she is not on my FB. She recently got chewed out for dating outside the truth, and my grandmother got counseled for celebrating her brithday (pics once agains posted on FB) I kinda wonder if my aunt snitched us all out? Or if one of her JW FB friends followed pages till they fou nd me. IT wouldnt be hard...afterall i Grew up in the congregation and in the same town I live in now. Everyone knows me. I did how ever [post a response on FB telling JW's to stay the f*ck outa my life and so on. It was rather a nasty rant. my neighbor hasnt said shit to me since that day. He used to at least wave and say hello, along with his daughter who was my friend growing up in the JW faith. I guess that seals the deal for me lol.
Ugh sorry. Venting again. I didnt meant this post to be so long.