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  Remembering Will

  by SlayerLayer in

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  i didn't really know these people that well.

  i was only ten.

  we were at their house eating dinner, one sunday after the meeting.

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  SlayerLayer

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  Remembering Will

  by SlayerLayer in

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  i didn't really know these people that well.

  i was only ten.

  we were at their house eating dinner, one sunday after the meeting.

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  SlayerLayer

  For all of you that offered kind words, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Unfortunately, this thread has become yet another battlezone. How sick is that? A thread that was meant to be a rememberance to a lost friend, has been defiled.
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  Remembering Will

  by SlayerLayer in

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  i didn't really know these people that well.

  i was only ten.

  we were at their house eating dinner, one sunday after the meeting.

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  SlayerLayer

  You guys are great. My apreciation for you and this board has escalated beyond anyhting imaginable. Thank you for your support. ALL of you.

  TR I wish that you lived on the east coast, I think we would probably be great friends raising all kinds of hell. You really crack me up sometimes.
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  They got a song wrong !

  by Simon in

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  not many people know but.... the song book is ordered alphabetically by the first word in the song.

  i guess it helps to find it when you missed the number and everyone starts singing.. i just noticed though that song no.

  28 is out of sequence.

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  SlayerLayer

  Ah Simon you beat me to the Monty Python quote! I guess strange minds think alike!

  "You are here because the world as you know it no longer makes sense.
  You've been raised on television to believe we'll all be millionaires and movie gods and rock stars - but we won't.
  You pray for a different life." Tyler Durden
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  Remembering Will

  by SlayerLayer in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i didn't really know these people that well.

  i was only ten.

  we were at their house eating dinner, one sunday after the meeting.

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  SlayerLayer

  Joelbear,
  Thank you for your kind words. I like you too. My cousin is gay and I lived with him for about 6 months. His roommate liked "bears" too. You remind me of him a lot. He was so cool. I admire the way you are so open with who you are.

  It's hard not to think that I could have prevented what happened. I know for a fact that I could've. He was lonely. I was fortunate enought to have found a life away from the org. He wasn't. I wish that I could change so much.

  You are a good man. Thank you.

  Outnfree,
  Thank you too for your kind words. My regrets do still haunt me. I don't think that I blame myself for what happened. I know that he made the choice. But I do regret that I wasn't there. I know that I could have prevented it.

  Slip,
  I am so thankful for this board as well. I agree with you that the people here including you have brightened my day on more than one occasion. That is why I am here. We feel alone after losing every friend and associate that we have ever known. Here, everyone knows what that feels like. Even with all the ugly racist threads going around, I admire them all for having the courage to start new lives after the borg. That is the common thread that we all share, and I wish that they would all see that.

  You are all warm and loving people who have brought a couple of tears to my eyes while reading this. Thank you.

  Slayer

  "You are here because the world as you know it no longer makes sense.
  You've been raised on television to believe we'll all be millionaires and movie gods and rock stars - but we won't.
  You pray for a different life." Tyler Durden
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  Remembering Will

  by SlayerLayer in

  1. jw
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  i didn't really know these people that well.

  i was only ten.

  we were at their house eating dinner, one sunday after the meeting.

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  SlayerLayer

  You Know,
  Could you BE more of an insensitive prick? What a fine christian example you are setting! I've never really given much thought to anything you post. I usually just consider the source. But I wish I could stand face to face with you right now. I would beat the living shit out of you. You should thank your "Jehovah" that you can hide behind a computer.

  "You are here because the world as you know it no longer makes sense.
  You've been raised on television to believe we'll all be millionaires and movie gods and rock stars - but we won't.
  You pray for a different life." Tyler Durden
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  They got a song wrong !

  by Simon in

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  not many people know but.... the song book is ordered alphabetically by the first word in the song.

  i guess it helps to find it when you missed the number and everyone starts singing.. i just noticed though that song no.

  28 is out of sequence.

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  SlayerLayer

  I don't have a copy anymore but I think on the back inside cover where all the men are singing in the picture, there is an extra leg.

  Slayer

  "You are here because the world as you know it no longer makes sense.
  You've been raised on television to believe we'll all be millionaires and movie gods and rock stars - but we won't.
  You pray for a different life." Tyler Durden
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  Remembering Will

  by SlayerLayer in

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  i didn't really know these people that well.

  i was only ten.

  we were at their house eating dinner, one sunday after the meeting.

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  SlayerLayer

  I didn't really know these people that well. I was only ten. We were at their house eating dinner, one sunday after the meeting. They had two children Josh and Will. They were just little kids to me. I don't know their exact ages but I would guess that Will was probably around 5 or 6 and Josh was even younger.

  I was too old to have in fun with them I thought. They are just kids. I wanted to go home. I was bored.

  Flash foward.

  I was 23 and had been disfellowshipped for a couple of years. I ran into some kids that had recently been d'fd themselves. They were all around 18 years of age. They had discovered the world of drugs and sex. It was strange for me because I remembered them as being little kids running around the kingdom hall, and here they were introducing me to acid and weed. Will was among them.

  I took a job at the restaurant that Will and a couple others worked at. One night, Will and I were outside behind the building taking a smoke break. We talked about the night that I was at their house when we were kids. He said that when we were little, he looked up to me a lot, and that he thought I was so cool.

  We talked about how d'fing affects people. About how alone we were now that our friends and family shun us. I told him that we would have to look out for each other now, because no one else would. I felt like I gained a little brother that night.

  Flash forward.

  I was 26. I had since moved away and had not seen Will in 2 1/2 years.

  I was working in construction. One day at work, we were using a rope to raise materials to the walkboard 30 feet above us. My coworker and I were always playing sick jokes. I tied the rope into a noose and put it around my neck. I said " I Can't take the pressure anymore!". It was a joke. We laughed and went back to work.

  That night I recieved a phone call from my mother. She said that Will had been found in a motel. He had hung himself.

  The words that we spoke to each other that night at the restaurant haunted me. I had not been there.

  I later found out that Will had been in and out of jail. He was trying to get reinstated, but always felt that he couldn't do it. He felt that he had done too much in Jehovah's eyes. The pressure to get reinstated had gotten to him, and now he was dead.

  It's been about 3 years since he died. I think about the night we said that we would look out for each other. I think about it a lot.

  I don't really know why I am posting this story. Maybe because I want people to know how the org can devestate your life. Maybe it's because I feel guilty that I wasn't there. Or maybe it's because I want people to...

  Remember Will

  Slayer

  "You are here because the world as you know it no longer makes sense.
  You've been raised on television to believe we'll all be millionaires and movie gods and rock stars - but we won't.
  You pray for a different life." Tyler Durden
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  TR vs. Rocky!

  by TR in

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  ok, ok, it was a tko!

  this pic was taken at planet hollywood seattle in may.. .

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  SlayerLayer

  That's awesome TR. I've got a pic of me in front of the terminator from planet hollywood Myrtle Beach, and a pick of me in front of Darth Vader from Planet Hollywood in Beverly Hills. I'll have to find them and post them.
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  Independence Day and African Americans

  by jimmyjames in

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  a black friend of mine will not celebrate the 4th of july.

  he feels it's a mockery since black people were still slaves when the country gained its independence.. i wanted to hear what other people think of that.

  that's the first person i've ever heard mention it, but i never thought about that.

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  SlayerLayer

  How remarkably wise you are. Almost as wise as TeeJay, the instigator of all things racist.