"It's a conscience matter" - GO FOR IT!!!
Meadow36
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WT Lexicon
by 00DAD ini was thinking it would be helpful if we put together a wt lexicon for those that are not too familiar with wt terminology.
it's important for them to understand these theocratic expressions so that they too can understand and speak the "pure language" of truth.
- zeph.
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I was HAPPY as a JW! How did I end up here? Pt 2
by MC RubberMallet incontinuation of... http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/watchtower/beliefs/239292/5/i-was-happy-as-a-jw-how-did-i-get-here.
me: so why is it we can make false predictions, but no one else can?.
i see...... do you know my heart?.
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Meadow36
yes...the Revelation Book started me questioning things ever so slightly. I remember sitting in bookstudy thinking "How the HELL did they come up with THAT?!" A thought I loyally squashed.
I too want to thank you, MC.
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I was HAPPY as a JW! How did I end up here? Pt 2
by MC RubberMallet incontinuation of... http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/watchtower/beliefs/239292/5/i-was-happy-as-a-jw-how-did-i-get-here.
me: so why is it we can make false predictions, but no one else can?.
i see...... do you know my heart?.
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Meadow36
Ruminating....I'm new here. I reached out in desperation on this board and everyone was so helpful. I don't know what's next for me...i feel as though my life has been lived and now I'm just waiting to die. But my Son is on the fast-track to Bethel. I'm nauseous. I wish we could talk personally.
Witness My Fury: What is google??
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I was HAPPY as a JW! How did I end up here? Pt 2
by MC RubberMallet incontinuation of... http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/watchtower/beliefs/239292/5/i-was-happy-as-a-jw-how-did-i-get-here.
me: so why is it we can make false predictions, but no one else can?.
i see...... do you know my heart?.
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Meadow36
What is the Harold Camping failure??
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Oompa, I'm sorry...
by Mr. Falcon inoompa,.
i'm sorry that you had to endure the pain you did.
regardless if you believe in god or not, what you were going through was sheer hell.. i'll keep this short, i won't eulogize you too long, 'cause i can kind of detect that you'd hate that.
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Meadow36
So sweet...can we really drink now?
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SAD news about OOMPA......
by redredrose inour friend, oompa, has passed away.
just recieved the news a couple of hours ago, and have almost no details.
it happened today or yesterday, he took his own life.
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Meadow36
I'm so sorry for everyone hurting here. I first saw what happened and my eyes flew open wide and my heart stopped...though I have only posted here once I was so encouraged by so many of you posting to help me. I thought "Oompa" was one of the many who had shared with me on that post and when I tore back through it I saw it was actually Oodad. Only then did the tears flow, for Oompa, though I hadn't met him, I know his pain - I know how hopeless this purgatory we are in is. Time to go - to read more about him and all of you. Much Love, Meadow36.
THIS is real. THIS is the truth - someone is gone now, in the cold hard light of day the esoteric (sp?) platitudes from the publications are all just like the extra words we use to fill up a book report!
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Getting Back In (yes, its for family) What do I Say on 3rd Try?
by Meadow36 inin my last meeting to be re-instated they said for next time figure out which person from the bible i'm most like.
and be ready to tell them what i pray about and how i feel about what i did to jehovah.
being honest , speaking from the heart about jesus forgiving peter and having a hard time answering the prayer question didn't work getting hysterical and nervous-breakdownish at the end didn't help, nor did running out of the hall after saying i could never do any better.
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Meadow36
I want to that you all again for your concern and honesty. I didn't realize how many there were like me who would grasp the nuances of the path I'm taking - the kids, the family, the shunning, just the whole concept of turning to the dark side and playing a part to get back in. Oh and the difficulty of telling my AA sponsor the truth about the situation out of fear of bringing reproach OJN. I wish this was like a private chat room or something so I could be more specific because it feels so good to be truely understood, but I'm paranoid that maybe someone from my cong. is spying on me or something...I wonder if anyone has gotten in trouble and busted participating here?? Quendi, thank you for sharing that. I have always wondered...what could the elders POSSIBLY say to someone who is gay (like in a JC setting)? Tell them to pray more or "try harder" to change who they are attracted to? Could any amount of scripture reading make me suddenly attracted to women? Or them to each other? We are who we are - it must have been torture; praying to Jehovah to change you, waiting for a miracle. I am drawing strength from you - all of you. Wow it just dawned on me that, had they re-instated me last week I wouldn't have found my way here.
Well, tomorrow's Sunday - I have some new pantyhose, a new pack of neon highlighters, the current WT and a plan. Wish me LUCK.
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Getting Back In (yes, its for family) What do I Say on 3rd Try?
by Meadow36 inin my last meeting to be re-instated they said for next time figure out which person from the bible i'm most like.
and be ready to tell them what i pray about and how i feel about what i did to jehovah.
being honest , speaking from the heart about jesus forgiving peter and having a hard time answering the prayer question didn't work getting hysterical and nervous-breakdownish at the end didn't help, nor did running out of the hall after saying i could never do any better.
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Meadow36
I have to fly to work so I will be brief (such the familiar phrase) - this is indeed my first DFing and last week was my third meeting. I'm uplifted by your suggestion and kind words, (except for Steve 2 - I never said I wasnt pathetic) like I will have abetter day today, me thinks. I will re read every thing tonight so I can keep my eyes on the prize (for my kids, teenage pios, very close to cong. live with me and want to rather than their "in good standing" abusive dad).
No time for spell check or to express my appreciation to each of you individually...until tonight. Bless you all
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Getting Back In (yes, its for family) What do I Say on 3rd Try?
by Meadow36 inin my last meeting to be re-instated they said for next time figure out which person from the bible i'm most like.
and be ready to tell them what i pray about and how i feel about what i did to jehovah.
being honest , speaking from the heart about jesus forgiving peter and having a hard time answering the prayer question didn't work getting hysterical and nervous-breakdownish at the end didn't help, nor did running out of the hall after saying i could never do any better.
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Meadow36
What can I say? I am blown away by this love and support. I even laughed sincerely for the first time is a week. I never thought I could in conection with this. (Ya, Bros probably wouldn't want to wear a flowery dress!!) I'm a drunkard, with four months now of abstinence, the whole thing began by asking for help with my problem. I will take absolutely everything you all have sugested under advisement. Fortunately I am quite the actress. Honestly speaking from my heart and perhaps trying to straighten out some misunderstanding (still respectful, though) was a failure. To stay sober I go to AA and have a sponser it's vitaly important be ve honest with her and no matter how I try to explain to her that it's not cruel ("YOU CAN'T PRAY WITH YOUR CHILDREN???!!!!) it's giving her an even worse impression of JDUBS. Of course I wont dare say that to them. I will have to say that being DF'd helped me get better and try not to vomit. As for the biblical character...Hannah was praying and weeping because she couldn't have a baby and (whoever)came along and thought she was drunk but then he was impessed wth the feeling she brought to her prayers. Maybe I can construct something around that story. Once again - thank you for the hope you have given me. I will pay it forward some day, when a devestated woman walks in an AA meeting, freshly cast out to die under a bridge bottle in hand; and I can do this for her. I will keep you all posted, and I will enjoy shopping for a June Cleaver dress and some "restraining" undergarments. I will be thinking of you all, all day tomorrow. "No One Mourns the Wicked"
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Getting Back In (yes, its for family) What do I Say on 3rd Try?
by Meadow36 inin my last meeting to be re-instated they said for next time figure out which person from the bible i'm most like.
and be ready to tell them what i pray about and how i feel about what i did to jehovah.
being honest , speaking from the heart about jesus forgiving peter and having a hard time answering the prayer question didn't work getting hysterical and nervous-breakdownish at the end didn't help, nor did running out of the hall after saying i could never do any better.
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Meadow36
In my last meeting to be re-instated they said for next time figure out which person from the bible I'm most like. And be ready to tell them what I pray about and how I feel about what I did to jehovah. Being honest , speaking from the heart about Jesus forgiving Peter and having a hard time answering the prayer question didn't work Getting hysterical and nervous-breakdownish at the end didn't help, nor did running out of the hall after saying I could never do any better. I can't give up, though for my family. I need to know exactly what to say so I dance for them right next time. Getting uspet again just typing this! It happened last week. Please help.