Scooby,
Welcome to this site. There are many here that can relate to your feelings of anxiety and despair. Being under the influence of WBTS dogma can be so emotionally, spiritually,and mentally incapacitating. This is a good place to start on the road to "recovery". Leaving the WBTS will not guarantee a problem free existence, but it seems that you are now putting yourself in a position to be helped by other people, groups, and agencies that can lay some wonderful tools at your feet for getting on with life. Above all, DON'T PANIC. Keep doing what you have started and don't give-up before the miracle.