Thanx everyone for your advice and encouragement. I have been seeing a Therapist once a week and a Psychiatrist once a month. I am on some medication that seems to really be helping. However I am trying be on the fewest meds as possible they want to give me a pill for everything but i have managed to limit it to 3 or 4 daily meds 3 on the reg. and 1 if I feel I need itup 3 or 4 times a day I dont take it very often though mixed with the other meds it kinda makes me drowsy.... works if i cant sleep though. Ive been frustrated with my whole situation though bcuz it feels kinda hopeless I dont think im ever going to get custody back. There is way to much working against me I signed away my parental rights.. The BIGGEST mistake I ever made. Its kills me when my 9 year old son comes to me and says I need to come to the meetings or else I wont be in the Paradise with him that i will die at armageddon... :( How can you teach that to a child that their parent will die if they do not come back to a certain religion. I know the JWs are not the only people who use those kind of brainwashing ideals to control their "flock". I really disgusts me I know the average Witness is not even aware of what they are involved in. Shame on the Watchtower!!!!!!! Those who are in control the "Faithful" and Discreet Slave are the ones who will be judged in the end(if there is an end). I know that God doesnt let all of these cults (not just the JWs) go unnoticed.
LuLu4YouYou
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hello I recently got away from the so called "truth" looking for people to talk to
by LuLu4YouYou inhello my name is louis.
i have seperated myself from the jws and am looking for people to talk to.
i dont have many people in my life who will even speak to me anymore or even acknowledge that i exist.
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hello I recently got away from the so called "truth" looking for people to talk to
by LuLu4YouYou inhello my name is louis.
i have seperated myself from the jws and am looking for people to talk to.
i dont have many people in my life who will even speak to me anymore or even acknowledge that i exist.
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this website www.sixscreensofthewatchtower.com has a internet talk show type deal I have found it interesting and helpful. Im amazed how many people are out there that have been hurt by the JWs. theres also alot of good videos on youtube
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hello I recently got away from the so called "truth" looking for people to talk to
by LuLu4YouYou inhello my name is louis.
i have seperated myself from the jws and am looking for people to talk to.
i dont have many people in my life who will even speak to me anymore or even acknowledge that i exist.
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by the way earlier I tried to embed a video of this vid i saw on youtube im gonna try again
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hello I recently got away from the so called "truth" looking for people to talk to
by LuLu4YouYou inhello my name is louis.
i have seperated myself from the jws and am looking for people to talk to.
i dont have many people in my life who will even speak to me anymore or even acknowledge that i exist.
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As far as being able to get my kids back with out going backl to the JW. see when I was using drugs real bad and was out of control I made the huge mistake of signing custody over to a family member and now they have control I do get some visitations however I dont knwo if I will ever get my parental rights back :(
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hello I recently got away from the so called "truth" looking for people to talk to
by LuLu4YouYou inhello my name is louis.
i have seperated myself from the jws and am looking for people to talk to.
i dont have many people in my life who will even speak to me anymore or even acknowledge that i exist.
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so with that I will go back to my preteens and my early teenage years..
I was always a great Athlete loved football also great at the Academics also I wanted to join the Chess club and the local Pewee football league. Which was forbidden in my house after months of begging and Nagging my mother to join these to activites she broke down and allowed me to join the chess Club for a brief time... until I believe the local congregation advised her against it I forged her name on the release form to play football for the local league and she Immediately within weeks enrolled me in to home schooling.
Once i was in home schooling it really did more harm then good. I fell in to a deep depression and nnone could help me the Elders said draw close to Jehovah he will help my mom would not bring me to see a psych Dr. because she did nto feel int was needed. I fin out today i am Bipolar typer 2 with severe depression and PTSD from being sexually abused as a child. At this point my momwas a single mom her qand my dad divorced and my dad was considered a Apostate..
By the way calling someone an Apostate who has left the religion especially sopmeone like my father who dedicated a great part of his life to the "truth" also makes me SICK. My father has been my strength since I decided I had to get away. Well back to home schooling my mom jhad top work all day left me home by myseklf to do my school work. instead I got involved in running drugs in my local area. As I said in the beggining I have been in and out for a number of years. well living that lifestyle was great in some ways I made a ton of $ had everything i could ever ask for (material wise) had woman at my feet because i was young in good shaope and had lots of $ but I also always felt this sickening guilt constantly wether it be for selling drugs or just taking a non witness girl on a date.
In the early 2000s I got married my wife passed away n ot long after leaving me with 2 young children 3yrs old and 1 month old to care for myself. I decided to move in to my moms house so she could help me with the kids however the rule was if I lived there i had to attend the meetings again. I was publically reproved twice the only reason they did not disfellowship me was because my father threathened them with a lawsuit if they did naything to push me over the edge.
I faioled to mention that in about 2005 I attempted suicide and not a cry for help I am lucky top be alive today they almost lost me they said the only reason i lived was because I was in such good physical health. Well being forced to go backj to the kingdom hall brought bacjk all the horrible memories of being seuxally abused and many other things and I started using heroine, cocaine you mention it. I lost custody of my kids and they are now with my mom.
IOt seems the only way i will ever get them back is if I decide to come back to the "truth" and i use the word truth sarcastically. I am clean and sober today and I working a honest job not selling drugs anymore however in order to get clean I had to cut the people out of my life who were involved in selling or using drugs the other half of the people in my life were JWs and they cut me out. so I have felt very alone atleast I have had my father.. See my breaking point was when i found several websites that have really helped me see the evils of the watchtower incase any of you do not know these sites I cqan think of 2 off the top of my head 1 is www.silentlambs.org and also www.sixscreensofthewatchtower.com io cannot believ the sexual abuse that takes place in the watchtower on silent lambs and also the Sixscreens has a great conference call i think on saturdays that has allowed me to connect with some people the six screens also has a show on youtube call jehoavhs witness world news <iframe width="640" height="360" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/uAds9cAywH4?feature=player_embedded" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>
This show really I think can help people to see the evilness of the Watchtower Society. infact if anyone can please help me to maybe try and contact the people who make this show and also the silent lambs website I would like to maybe share my story on their website I have emailed the links on their pages but have not got a response any help would be appreciated well this is the short version of ym story thank you for taking tyhe time to read it who knows maybe you will see me on the jw world news sometime telling my story for real if they would allow to keep my identity private. If any of you would like to read my who,le story in detail email me at LuLu4YouYou "at" yahoo.com [edited by moderator to protect security]
With Christian Love,
Louis from New England
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hello I recently got away from the so called "truth" looking for people to talk to
by LuLu4YouYou inhello my name is louis.
i have seperated myself from the jws and am looking for people to talk to.
i dont have many people in my life who will even speak to me anymore or even acknowledge that i exist.
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Thank you everyone for being so welcoming and Kind. Sorry i took so long to respond... I have been doing alot of research online about the JWs I guess they really are truely a cult...I am hesitant to share some of my story. I am afraid certain people may see it and I still have some good reasons not to want that. My story.. well I dont have a lot of time right this minute but let me give u a brief overview. I was born in to a JW family... I grew up ina good home for the most part. My father was a alcoholic most of my preteenlife and half of my teenage years.. His drinking had alot to do with the JWs and horrors he experienced by Brothers at the watchtower society in Brooklyn. My father is the oine who really helped me see thatt I was involved in a evil organization. I myself was also sexually abused by someone in my local KingdomHall which was swept under the Rug by the Local Elders...
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hello I recently got away from the so called "truth" looking for people to talk to
by LuLu4YouYou inhello my name is louis.
i have seperated myself from the jws and am looking for people to talk to.
i dont have many people in my life who will even speak to me anymore or even acknowledge that i exist.
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I finally went against everything I knew and started to really research on the Jehoavhs Witness and I am seeing that there is so much that is kept from us it is sickening. I cannot believe the things I have read and hearsd over the past several months
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hello I recently got away from the so called "truth" looking for people to talk to
by LuLu4YouYou inhello my name is louis.
i have seperated myself from the jws and am looking for people to talk to.
i dont have many people in my life who will even speak to me anymore or even acknowledge that i exist.
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Well.... I have been kinda in and out for the past 15yrs. There is alot of my story I am hesitant to share bcuz a family member has one of my children and if they knew that I am really totally done with all of it they would make it very hard for me to see my son. I guess I have known for a long time there was something wrong but I was raised as a JW and i am finally excepting that the roots of alot of my problems come from being involved with the JWs
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hello I recently got away from the so called "truth" looking for people to talk to
by LuLu4YouYou inhello my name is louis.
i have seperated myself from the jws and am looking for people to talk to.
i dont have many people in my life who will even speak to me anymore or even acknowledge that i exist.
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LuLu4YouYou
Hello my name is Louis. I have seperated myself from the JWs and am looking for people to talk to. I dont have many people in my life who will even speak to me anymore or even acknowledge that I exist. Anyone out there who feels what Im sayin ????
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hello I recently got away from the so called "truth" looking for people to talk to
by LuLu4YouYou inhello my name is louis.
i have seperated myself from the jws and am looking for people to talk to.
i dont have many people in my life who will even speak to me anymore or even acknowledge that i exist.
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LuLu4YouYou
Hello my name is Louis. I have seperated myself from the JWs and am looking for people to talk to. I dont have many people in my life who will even speak to me anymore or even acknowledge that I exist. Anyone out there who feels what Im sayin ????