Rhets001

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  When can I let my guard down?

  by hybridous in

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  quick background:.

  born-in, but never baptized.

  remainder of family still (by all appearances) loyal dubs.

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  Rhets001

  I'd say it depends on your kid. Always still have a talk with them before they are around the relatives. My sister's daughter spent 3 weeks with my elder father and mother and came home talking about how she wants to study the bible together. My sister at first was pissed, but then she just told my 9 year old niece that if she studies she doesn't get to celebrate Christmas and her birthday. That pretty much sealed the deal for her on never taking about being a jw again lol. However not all kids would react that way. So yeah, depends on each child.
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  Another big step on my journey

  by LogansRun in

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  1987 attended the memorial for the first time, and the last time?

  2016. it was a big step for me to not go last night i'm convincing myself that i really do have the strength to never return to this living nightmare of a religion.

  you may recall i'm a fader my last meeting was 9 months ago and i have deflected a number of attempted visits and dozens of phone calls they now just hang up on my answering machine, as a matter of fact they did it again this morning.

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  It still hits me hard every year. I haven't went for like 4 years. My cousin asked me to go and I thought about it because I just wanted to see my family. But then I got so sad and depressed, all the feelings came back and I was like "why put myself through that?"

  My dad also text me "reminding me" to go. They live far away, he's an elder and was giving the talk at his congregation.

  So many jws suffer from depression. I just thought it was normal till I got out.

  It gets easier, you'll always have moments, but it does get easier.
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  This years memorial defeated me and I didn't even go

  by Ghiagirl in

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  i have not posted in a very long time here.

  i would say about a year.

  i was part of an ex jw chat that was very helpful, but a few months ago stopped being apart of it.

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  Rhets001

  My cousin invited me to the memorial this year. I actually left work early bc I thought of going... I was her maid of honor at her wedding and she just had a baby, and I can't lie I miss her. I have a husband and 2 beautiful kids. A happy life. But there is a hole, something always missing, because the first 24 years of my life are wiped away.

  I just wanted to see my family... But then I started getting so beyond sad at even the thought of being there. I hate I let them still affect me like this. I hate I even considered going. Now it's in my head again. I was so depressed as a Jw and now I am not but when I think about them again it all comes back. I think I'll forever be an ex jw. No matter how much I just want to be just me. :(