It's important for us to develop self-awareness about emotional "pressure" such as this and correctly identify the source(s) of it.
It this case, this "pressure" is the result of the indoctrinated guilt and phobias originating from the WT leadership.
These are "commands of men" that can be disregarded with complete impunity and without the slightest twinge of guilt or remorse. - Matthew 15:9
Stay away from the Kingdom Hall and enjoy your personal freedom--live your life as YOU choose and not as directed by the delusional leaders of an increasingly irrelevant cult.