Dubstepped, I was encouraged to read how you and your wife walked out together. My wife shows signs of waking up, so I hope we can make a clean break together. Maybe the loyalty convention will do it for us.
Dreamerdude
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Waking up - introduction
by Dreamerdude ini am a male, born into the jw cult(ure), baptized as a teen, now mid fifties.
most of my life i dreamed of hugging pandas and lions, punctuated at times by nightmares of armageddon or jw drama and politics.
still going through the motions for still-in wife.
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Waking up - introduction
by Dreamerdude ini am a male, born into the jw cult(ure), baptized as a teen, now mid fifties.
most of my life i dreamed of hugging pandas and lions, punctuated at times by nightmares of armageddon or jw drama and politics.
still going through the motions for still-in wife.
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OTWO, thanks. Yes, I am looking at the man in the mirror, to quote brother MJ as he quotes James. I have taken a close look at your posts to see what I can do. There are some gems there. I hope to see you at Tahoe some day. That will be my Paradise. -
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Waking up - introduction
by Dreamerdude ini am a male, born into the jw cult(ure), baptized as a teen, now mid fifties.
most of my life i dreamed of hugging pandas and lions, punctuated at times by nightmares of armageddon or jw drama and politics.
still going through the motions for still-in wife.
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Ding, great advice. I really do need patience, as the KJ urges, more so than long-suffering from the outdated NWT. She actually picks out things that never bothered me a bit. One example is when the WT tried to insinuate that they would dictate where we live and and what work we will do in Paradise. My wife thought that is one thing she had control of. She was really distraught, so I told told her that it was not their place to tell us what to do. That was a bit too much for her. I should have said "Maybe you're right". -
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Waking up - introduction
by Dreamerdude ini am a male, born into the jw cult(ure), baptized as a teen, now mid fifties.
most of my life i dreamed of hugging pandas and lions, punctuated at times by nightmares of armageddon or jw drama and politics.
still going through the motions for still-in wife.
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Talesin, 1975 suppressed memories have flooded back. I thought I had dodged a bullet when October 3, 1975 passed with me still unbaptized. I took the plunge at the next assembly. -
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Waking up - introduction
by Dreamerdude ini am a male, born into the jw cult(ure), baptized as a teen, now mid fifties.
most of my life i dreamed of hugging pandas and lions, punctuated at times by nightmares of armageddon or jw drama and politics.
still going through the motions for still-in wife.
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Millie, I'm starting to feel more comfortable already. -
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Waking up - introduction
by Dreamerdude ini am a male, born into the jw cult(ure), baptized as a teen, now mid fifties.
most of my life i dreamed of hugging pandas and lions, punctuated at times by nightmares of armageddon or jw drama and politics.
still going through the motions for still-in wife.
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Dreamerdude
Hybrid, I will try not to rush, since there is a lot at stake. Farkel,has left a very nice legacy here, and I hope his levity will rub off on me.
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Waking up - introduction
by Dreamerdude ini am a male, born into the jw cult(ure), baptized as a teen, now mid fifties.
most of my life i dreamed of hugging pandas and lions, punctuated at times by nightmares of armageddon or jw drama and politics.
still going through the motions for still-in wife.
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Joe, reality does suck. thanks for the advice about watching my health. I have actually been feeling better the past year, being very conscious of sleep, exercise, and diet. I even feel closer to my wife. I feel a lot of empathy for her, and I have told her many times that I love her no matter what we each think of the org. -
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Waking up - introduction
by Dreamerdude ini am a male, born into the jw cult(ure), baptized as a teen, now mid fifties.
most of my life i dreamed of hugging pandas and lions, punctuated at times by nightmares of armageddon or jw drama and politics.
still going through the motions for still-in wife.
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PTN, I wish you the best with your husband. If I make progress, I will be sure to post it. I really hope there is a way. Geoff's testimony at ARC caused my wife to stir and she insisted we stop donating. I heartily agreed. What she didn't know is that I had already stopped months before that. -
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Waking up - introduction
by Dreamerdude ini am a male, born into the jw cult(ure), baptized as a teen, now mid fifties.
most of my life i dreamed of hugging pandas and lions, punctuated at times by nightmares of armageddon or jw drama and politics.
still going through the motions for still-in wife.
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Thank you for the warm welcome, encouragement and advice. -
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Waking up - introduction
by Dreamerdude ini am a male, born into the jw cult(ure), baptized as a teen, now mid fifties.
most of my life i dreamed of hugging pandas and lions, punctuated at times by nightmares of armageddon or jw drama and politics.
still going through the motions for still-in wife.
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Dreamerdude
I am a male, born into the JW cult(ure), baptized as a teen, now mid fifties. Most of my life I dreamed of hugging pandas and lions, punctuated at times by nightmares of Armageddon or JW drama and politics. Still going through the motions for still-in wife.
I started to wake up in 2010, dozing on and off until 2014. I was slapped wide awake by the notorious Tony Tight Pants Rant at the Annual Meeting. I am mentally free of FOG and my fondest dream at the moment is to be physically free of this mind controlling cult.
I have read CoC, Steve Hassan, JWFacts and many of your delightful posts here. One of my favorites is Farkel, although I am sad I joined too late to interact with him.
It is so good to know that I am alone. However, I am very sad that my wife is still completely deluded and reacts so dramatically when I occasionally ignite her CD. I empathize with her, because I too suffer the pain of CD, when the things I was taught to believe collide with the recognition of reality.
I feel calm as I write this, with my main focus on rescuing my wife, causing her as little trauma as possible.
I feel like I am still in a daze, so I apologize if this is incoherent or inconsistent. Maybe some words of wisdom from those of you who have gone before will help me see more clearly.
As I come to, I hope to make some positive contributions here, but please give me time.