A Message From Caroline Myss
Hello my friends,
This past weekend, I gave a workshop in Chicago with my dear friend, Ron
Roth. Both of us presented variations on the themes of forgiveness and
moving on in life, and on the nature of prayer and healing. I am writing
this particular column in response to the many people who have contacted
me as a result of that workshop inquiring as to how one moves on and
forgives.
Forgiveness and giving up the need to know why things happen as they do
are two of life's greatest challenges. The hardcore truth is that we may
never know why things happen as they do. Because we grow up with
teachings about right and wrong, punishment and mercy, it is natural to
fall into a pattern that seems to offer us a type of safety net, namely
if we do not do anything wrong, nothing sad, bad, or undeserving will
happen to us. Unfortunately, life is not that organized, and certainly
it does not script itself around our definition of fairness. Horrible
things do happen. One woman spoke about her husband being murdered and
how does she release that? Another woman wrote about coming to terms
with the death of her daughter.
I used an example of imagery to illustrate what it feels like to
recognize that something, someone, a memory, a trauma, has your power,
or your spirit. I suggested that people image the person or event that
has them so disturbed or in crisis as standing directly in front of
them. Then I told them to picture that individual standing in front of
them in order to draw out of their psyche, their cell tissue, their
entire being the rage and sadness that lies within. With that image in
mind, the next step is to shift your perspective to the symbolic meaning
of the event. But what could be the symbolic meaning of a murder or the
death of a child? How can one possibly find such an answer that would
calm the soul? How is this exercise supposed to help a person heal when
all it seems to do is stir the heart with more grief?
Such an image can serve its role in healing because it is a purge. From
a symbolic perspective, confronting the details of an experience - even
something as horrific as finding one's spouse murdered in their home -
can bring to the surface the one anchor of pain that is weighing down
the soul, which is to confront the unfair and unjust nature of God and
life SO FAR AS WE AS INDIVIDUALS ARE CONCERNED WHEN IT IS OUR PAIN.
And this anger at God is a symbolic perspective that represents the
feelings that awaken in us when the uncontrollable happens that turns
our lives upside-down. We have been betrayed by the Divine.
Forgiveness and moving on in life is complicated for every emotional
reason. But the spiritual reason must be acknowledged as well because
these painful experiences threaten our relationship to life itself. We
have the association that forgiveness is equal to saying to someone,
"What you did is okay. I'm fine", which makes them feel better while we
remain in grief. And perhaps even more grief because we've just made
them feel okay. But that is not the meaning nor power in that act.
To release and move forward is the act of accepting, that which cannot be
accepted according to the scale of human justice. Forgiving and moving
on is the act of accepting that a Divine reason exists within the
unreasonable and even within the most horrific experience along with the
reality that we will never know that reason. There is no easy formula to
make a shift to acceptance. Would that there were. When someone says,
"Just tell me how?" I wish I could say, "Well, just do this and that
and all will be well", but that is simply not possible. Yet the truth is
that regardless of what happens to each of us, the choices we have are
to get bitter, or get better, or remain empty.
In imaging the event or person that traumatized you directly in front of
you, you can feel the absence of your own spirit. I encourage people to
enter into this experience as a way of recognizing how much of their own
life force is no longer within their own energy field. The intent is to
retrieve your own spirit lest you suffer from the absence of your own
power. While holding that image, visualize yourself expanding your size
well beyond the atmosphere of the earth so that the earth looks to be
the size of a pea. Then shift your attention away from the earth and
into your own eternity. Remind yourself of what is truth versus what is
true. What happened to you "truly" did happen, but the truth is that
what appears to be unfair will unfold in your life in some way that
brings grace to you if you open yourself to that grace. You cannot bring
back a loved one, but heaven can reshape your life to accommodate a
loss. Empty holes, even within the deepest part of our souls, can be
filled in. Certainly not the same way, but in some way that is life
serving and healing.
There is nothing easy or simple about getting over loss, grief, or the
pain caused within human relationships. And while some people have
endured extraordinary horrors, such as a murdered spouse, still at the
end of the day we all meet in the same place, which is burning with a
desire that life unfold according to rules of human justice and
fairness, where only those who "deserve" such grief get stricken by it.
But we know better. And since we cannot wait for the world to spin, as we
would wish, the only other choice is to recognize that every single
person in this world feels as we do. Forgiveness is not the act of
saying to another that everything is just fine now. It is the act of
retrieving your spirit from your history with the intention of opening
to grace and direction for today and tomorrow. As I once said to someone
in deep emotional crisis, perhaps a very effective method to help you
move toward forgiveness and release is to cease making that your goal.
Instead, put your attention on allowing your life to reshape itself
today instead of pouring energy into finding ways to explain yesterday.
No answer will ever satisfy that quest. Using such a direct and powerful
imagery as confronting the memory directly in front of you is a way of
breathing your spirit back into your body, drawing your energy out of
the trauma - not your memory, but your energy - and consciously
committing your spirit to reshaping your present moment. Doing this
exercise is a measuring device that allows you to assess how much of
your energy still lives in the past. Each time you tackle the images,
breathe your spirit back to present time, adding the prayer that grace
reshape your present moment and fill it with tranquility, acceptance and
endurance.
When you find your mind slipping into the sadness creating by the weight
of personal tragedy, immediately focus your attention on your breathing,
repeating to yourself, "I am remaining in present time and I am invoking
the grace to prevent me from sinking into the weight of yesterday". A
constant prayer and desire to remain in present time rebuilds your
spiritual reserves, slowly and continually. Eventually there will come
the moment when the energy in that reserve tips in your favor. Then,
when your soul feels its strength returning, then call the image forward
one more time with the intention of retrieving the remaining fragments
of your spirit.
I wish God's blessings on all of you and because I am so in touch with
so many of you striving so sincerely to heal, I am going to ask each of
you reading this to send a prayer of light and grace to all those we are
in touch with together. Thank you - you will never know how many lives
you are touching together as a group.
Caroline
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This is just a sample of May-2001 Salon Newsletter
THE FIRST TRUTH:
LIFE IS A JOURNEY OF BECOMING CONSCIOUS - NOTHING MORE AND NOTHING LESS
What made you pursue the path of becoming a "conscious" person and living a
more spiritual life? You have probably always lived your life believing in some
form of the Divine or God, only now you are most likely seeking "more", and
while that "more" can be defined in many ways, suffice to say that you are in
search of a God through which you can find spiritual empowerment. You no longer
want to observe God from afar; you want to feel God from within. We have been
"downloaded" with a passion that is rapidly reshaping us spiritually and
awakening in us a desire to do more than practice a religion; we want to channel
the energy of the heavens right through our psyches and souls and into the
physical dimension of our lives.
I am always listening to people in my workshops or reading in letters words
written by people who describe themselves as "healers", but I do not
necessarily accept that as their line of occupation because true "Healers" as
such are a rare breed (we'll examine what makes a healer a healer in a later
Salon). What these individuals are recognizing, however, is that some new
current of energy is running through their systems and they are being inspired
to find an alternative means of expressing this Divine electricity. The most
obvious one is healing, but that is not always the right choice for many. Work
in the healing field does serve the purpose, however, of giving a person a
target - an outlet through which they can verify and validate the fact that
"something" is being channeled through their systems that was not "there"
yesterday. And this something is making them want to live a different life, eat
different foods, share in global and spiritual concerns on this planet - in
short, become a more conscious person. At the very least, realization that a
significant energetic shift has taken place automatically makes a person want to
heal him/herself. It's simply a natural response to becoming what I refer to as
"spiritually animated". You become compelled to begin a psyche and soul
cleansing - the effortless effort.
You are going through something like this, or perhaps even most of what I am
describing - and it would be helpful to be given the right words through which
you can describe what you are experiencing so that you can embrace its purpose
in your life as well as recognize that your life cannot remain the same once a
process of revelation has begun. That life is a journey of becoming conscious
might have once upon a time meant nothing more to you than any other sentence on
a page. Now it determines the coarse of each day of your life and has become the
scale against which you measure every one of your actions. So how exactly should
you explore that truth and how is that truth exploring you?
ATTENDING TO YOUR CONTRADICTIONS ……..