Were you sexual abused like some members on JWN, humans who are fighting with their whole heart to regain something somebody stold from them? I personally know several members of the "UnHoly Congregation" who have joined JWN in the last year in a attempt to salvage their marriages, or relationships with their same sex spouse, but they are trying with all their might!
I had a conversation with a military recruiter (former Vet in Vietnam, Gulf War 1) who asked me, " why kids seem so fragile to their counterparts of the 1930s-1980s, what is keeping people from doing what they are able to do, with the situation they have?"
I don't understand how the Society can impact someone so young as you now, members on JWN have gone through Hell, have found who they are sexually at late ages of 50, or heading back to college in their 40s or mid 50s, screw those assholes at Bethel and live your life without regrets!