Welcome Miss.Fit, you are starting to think for yourself.
My abuser was eventually DF'd and then reinstated. I moved out of the area due to terrible reminders of the abuse. I knew when I heard of his behaviour after his reinstatement that he was not repentant, therefore concluded that nothing is directing the JW organisation but men, and men with a couldn't care less agenda at that.
By the way, back on topic, if satan makes you search the internet, how does he control the search engines? I'd like to know as I spend a lot of time optimising my work websites and wonder if it's futile as it's satan that decides and not Google or Bing etc.