I only skimmed some of the reply posts...still trying to gain patience in my life but I refuse to ask God for it. He'll make me work for it.
Anyhow, we all land on our feet eventually. Even those of us who may be currently having a really hard time dealing with the loss of parents, friends, siblings, and just life. Life that we've known. It is a loss and we all go through a mourning process. Sometimes I think that I have healed remarkably well, and fast. Then something will happen and the emotion of it all will try to come back. I've been saved for 8 months now, and it is easier now. Last night God spoke to a friend, that I am very special to Him and He just wants to embrace me. And we all are special to God. I've gone from being very bitter and angry at the JWs for how much I suffered because of them to now, just being saddened by how blind they are, by how heavy their chains are. I intercede often for them, to just be freed from the bondages that these men have placed them in.
My family want me to continue to suffer. But I am so happy, not that I'm always smiling and laughing ( only most of the time), but I am truely happy.
I had heard from the Lord at the beginning of the year, that I needed to get in touch with my mom. That even though I was not at fault for the break in our relationship, one of us had to make the first step. One of us had to make ourself available for healing and restoration. So I sent her a card to thank her for my piano lessons (I now play in church). I sent her photos and updates of my kids that she hasn't even seen in almost 3 years (my ds is 5 and my dd is 4). I recieved a letter back from her, which suprised me. She admitted to being the one who called social services last summer. She says, "In the Bible, God's spirit inspired word, you will be accountable to Jehovah the true God for not only yourselves and those you speak with but also and very importantly your children. You know this. Therefore this I gratefully leave in Jehovah's hands." That was because I had mentioned that we were very happy in our church. She claims that I am using my children as weapons against them, etc, because I left the borg. Puuuuuleeezzzzz! Gimme a break! Then she makes a snotty comment about praying "(or whatever it is you do)" she says.
Yes, my family wants me to be absolutely miserable without the WTS. And it's killing them that I am so just.....purely happy without them. And when she sends me these letters like this, now instead of being angry or hurt, I ache because of how blinded she is, how bound she is to such religious dictatorship. I want for my family to have the same freedome and the same happiness that I have found. So, am I unhappy? Not at all. But my heart does go out to the rank and file who are still being blinded and seduced by Satan inside that organization.