Like I said in a previous post i have a lot of thinking to do and some big decisions to make about where my future lies. As long as I stay in the truth he's always going to think he can make me get back together with him coz he says i don't have a choice coz we're married and have to stay together no matter what.
I can't get back with him even though we have a son coz I'll end up having a break down or having my own mental health problems in the future coz of him and I won't put my kids through all the mental torture off him again. I don't want to stay on my own either I want to be in a happy loving respectful relationship so I kind of can guess which route I'll end up going down already. I've been questioning the truth for a long time but More so after things I've been told off elders and other sisters about having to put up with abuse. I can't imagine a loving God could stand to see someone so unhappy coz of a bad marriage mate and expect them just to live with it. There are other doctrines that have nn's questioning the truth too especially Deuteronomy 18:20-22.