Let me ask you this mm ,if you were a baptized person and never attended meetings for 10-20 years ,how would the G.B.of Jw`s / Elders view you ? I believe they would automatically assume you have been practising wrongs that are condemned in the Bible and haul you before a JC committee if ever you walked back into a K.H.
So my position was better for me to do it to them than they do it to me .
In your scenario you cant win whatever you do ?
but at least I felt good about it .
Just my 2 cents worth.